2nd place of diary=]

To you : LEF

2011-10-16T08:58:00.000-07:00

I'm so attached to you. Imy. Yes I do until I dunno how to put into words. Hate myself being like this for so many bloody days!
I just can't recover :( I'm not strong yet not tough . Please be by my side:( watching u from the back is the worst feeling I've ever had. ;'(
Please tell me you miss me to.
Bi.

Sorry that I love u...

2011-07-04T08:24:00.000-07:00

I'm in deep shit . I know this shouldn't come at this time .
I start missing you .
Starting to stalk u where I can know u better .
Starting to question why u din reply when u reply late.
Starting not to care your weaknesses .

Where I know this shouldn't happen when I know u still missing her .

Love is difficult .
I think I like u .

:(

2011-07-02T09:28:00.000-07:00

After so long , I decided to post . Wasn't something good.
I'm so stressed up !! Tired moody and super f*ck up :( the distance is getting bigger and bigger .the mre it is the more I feel I'm left out .
Im losing myself .I dunno where is my confidence . I dunno where is the original me . I feel so bad all the time . I feel lonely . All the time I'm alone . This is the now me . I'm imperfect . I'm not rich . I'm not as highly educated . I'm not pretty . I'm just a piece of thing . Perhaps , I'm useless . I'm tired of all this . When I'm really down , I can't even find some one to talk to . True friends ? I think I have to use binocular and find . :( depressed .
I need a total new network so badly !!!

We have become the world's most familiar strangers

2010-12-26T07:51:00.000-08:00

Do you still remember
that moonlit ocean outside the window
do you still remember
it was love that lit our night

Why did we later
depend on silence
The star that used to shine brightly
gradually turned into mist

After heartbreak you left,
turned around and returned to waiting
Is it because of loneliness
that we search for someone to fill in our empty hearts

We have become the world's
most familiar strangers
From today on we each go through complications individually
grieve individually

Just blame it on loving too fiercely
loving too deeply
Finally we are awake from the dream, stranded and silent, waving goodbye
yet we can't return to our spirits

If, at our first meeting, we were able to tolerate
our excited souls,
maybe tonight I will not let
myself sink into my memories

fattttttttttttttttttttttttt

2010-12-05T07:07:00.001-08:00

why m i so FAT?!?!??!?! ergh!!!!!

2010-11-04T08:24:00.000-07:00

i talk about you. you talk about that person.
i concern about you. you concern about that person.
what eva you told me what u feel . i feel that for you.
whateva that I THINK im suppose to know . but i dont get it from you.

since there is already a replacement , good to both of us. CHEERS =) im glad.

ya ya.my fault , my bad that makes you cry in front of your friend. because im harsh enough and did not fully utilize my brain cell to THINK before i speak. =)

so. see? how good is now right?
i cannot see any reason on the moment you pissed and ignored.

say it all out. im dramatic im full of expression.
i am. dats what made me ng su sin.

i remembered something. she's right. 2 years back. she utter these sentences from her mouth " im not like you. no matter how close we are , i WONT 100% trust you. " yet , again , i did not take that words into consideration , falling into the same trap again. LOL!!!

not im repelling you. not that i dont want to talk to you. is you that let me off. our heart WAS tied before. it was all just BEFORE.

birthday wishes...

2010-11-04T07:57:00.000-07:00

seriouly thinking what m i suppose to get for myself during this year birthday...
after long consideration , ....
and if i could.....
i wish to have a very simple birthday present.
i want a piece of blank paper...
an automatic pen.......

not greedy right?
just two of that. would have > than enough.
to let me express what i wan to express... non-stop expressing.
jot down as fast as what my brain is processing. let it all out and never remain in my brain.

im tired.

jealousy turns hatred....

2010-11-02T07:41:00.000-07:00

im not your true friend. because u cant even let go your worst emotion and share your bad times with me.

i am jealous. because i felt betrayed and lost in trust.

i dont know who am i suppose to talk to when i am real down.

label : not emo but depressed.

controlled but fail miserably...

2010-10-21T07:57:00.000-07:00

i DONT KNOW HOW TO DO . i feel so miserable. im stuck with the situation. een its only 45 min during the situation... but it makes me feel like im dragging 45 years.... u wont understand the feeling unless you're in me , myself.
i hate the feeling. and i cant express out. i tot i will get over it. but it get worst
.. it affects my mood affects my emotions.
because i cant do anything much to change the situation.
T.T

2010-10-02T22:48:00.000-07:00

i know youre human. dats y im throwing question to you. too bad, you make it ntg happen. fail . com cause its so obvious. so so so obvious until blind wan can notice it.

you're very different now. way different from last time. like u always say , MAYBE our frenship is just so shallow.

what's the point if only u und me and i dont und you? im telling you everything and you dont? its just the same as "one sided love". so.. if la you notice, i dont speak anymore. thought of giving you less burden and share some of yours with me... lol.. pls laugh out loud. cause im stupid doing so.

im used to you being with me.
used to you being so so so close with me.
not even a little gap is filling up the space.
now? even an elephant can fit into the space.
u dont speak. no nobdy can understnad you. is you yourself dont let ppl und you. and ve told u since last time.
over confident in you. not dependent in you.
it irritates me . i feel guilts when youre helping me all the time. you make me feel so worthless and helpless.
sometimes, i just hope dat theres a day i could help you.
it seems like owh. its impossible.

im just being me. getting frust up and FUCK up when u keep quite when something is wrong.
maybe im just too kepoh.
if concern towards you is something wrong , i apologize.

because u said " i no need concern".
its not me taking words too seriously. cause i dont see the point of me being a clown so care towards you. and u just said "nothing".

time flies

2010-08-31T06:24:00.000-07:00

every time when ive been remimded that.... m already 20, haven get into my degree program, i feel really bad.. time flies.
i realise im old. real old for a foundation student. yea.. those were negative thoughts..
advice? age is not a boundaries for education. live to old, learn to old..(chinese direct tanslate). but. to those aged ppl, they been respect. me?
hm..

....
too many things going on and on...
i realise i lost myself...
questioning when is my last visit to temple and when is my last prayer?
yea. for a believer like me, i feel bad and disappointed with myself...

there's ntg stopping me.. its all discipline.
where i dont have it.
it turn worst..
when i lost my confidence.

ive changed. from bad to worse.

yet.. it dont get better now.

i really really dont know what should i do.

no solid support from family what i wanted to do.
yes! if u ignore old ppl's advice, u'll regret of it later on.

yes! you have to get a degree. as a back up or what so ever.

i used to tell all juniors. do not not not not ever give up on studies.

now??
do all matters?

everyone is going upward.
im the only one left behind.

feeling lost. no direction. been humilated since form 5.

until i enter form 6
...
this gets better...

tik tok tik tok...
1 and ahalf year past
result time?

its worst than i expected.

thoughts of getting into sabah u... getting into local uni life....
meeting mentor...
going into campus...
no more home sticking life...
independence in hostel...

everything just gone.

ntg but gone

i know. i know . i know.

everyone ask.. why dont you apply?
yea yea... answering "actually i also duno why. maybe i know im going private. i cant stay at hostel so i din apply"...

yea... believe... believe...

only me. myself know the truth.

i dont dare. not even a single dare to tell ppl dat im afraid.

im afraid to receive the news from gov dat my application been rejected cause i TL.
where TL stands for TIDAK LAYAK.

i wanted so so so so so much to get into local uni.
so so so much just to make my parents go "wow"

never fail to dream going to local uni. never.
secretly online and visit sabah local uni campus. wondering how would it be.

at the end, its just a daylight dream dats keps my time pass... day by day...
celebrating friends farewell to local uni... coming back to klang....

and... me?

non stop changing and non stop troubbling ppl...

and it makes me understand why ppl commited suicide...

the secret has been revealed at last.
i regreted everything ive done after spm. every single little thing.

i just know how to cry. which it leads me to move no where.

i cannot find my confidence. i feel so timid. even smaller than a microorganism.
dat i lost the original me.

dont be surprise if you dont meet me tomorrow. cause its part of my choice.

2010-07-04T09:21:00.001-07:00

will update trip photo soon!!! haha

orang kurang upaya

2010-06-08T01:07:00.001-07:00

im seriously feel dat im the orang kurang upaya. sumur it's like damn damn kurang the upaya.

i cant drive!
and i cant draw now!!!

im so so so tired !
and im really like a piece of rubbish by the side of the road.

a rotten apple.

i hate my life.
fuck it off.

nothings went smooth since the beginning.
i should't be here.

2010-06-06T03:38:00.001-07:00

wtf you wan from me?!?!?!
ergh!!!

what's your prob?!?!?!
having a rest and holiday is a big big big big big SIN?!?!?!?!?

im born to work only izit?!?!?!??!

ergh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i said i apply to work at fragrance shop. you give me those face.
i say gift shop, you give me another face. apply dee no 1 employ.
you say i din go work!

since you all love to work rite? you all go work la!! go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-05-24T07:26:00.000-07:00

relationship gets way diff nowadays.
everything changes.
too much of revealing.
and i think its time to keep it down again.

its not something good
its not something dat i wanted.

the feeling is very different.
and i have no idea why.

23rd may 2010

2010-05-23T07:14:00.000-07:00

its been long dat i haven update any post. lol.

bz on work,
bz on hosp,
bz on choosing uni,
bz on sis wedding
bz with alot alot of things ..

but i have no idea wat actually im bz-ing with.
day by day,
and its towards the end of may.

alot of thing keep changing..

and yea. granny getting better already =)

thanks for all the concern from you guys=)

was chit chatting the whole day. from morning until night with my granny.
she's awesome.
really awesome and funny.

when she's telling me her child hood.

from her going to school.
and then there it comes the japanese army. war is going on.
she can remember those incident very well.
and from there, she describe how she is keeping alive from those moment.

and then the end of war.
she stop her school
and start to work
until...
her mum
ask her to get married.
realy marriage
but
after few years, only she gave birth. lol!! and from there. she describe....
the first son.. how and how.
the second son (my dad) is so handsome and talkative...

so on and on....

and then about the son getting married.
and there is all the grand children comes...
and then...until now....

while massaging her hand, she's telling stories... how the feeling is been felt, no one could know better than me.

im feeling good. proud of what ive did today.

she's great and getting better =)
looking more sexier and sexier. lol

and i hope tomorrow would be better.

you. just know what i wanted to tell you.
=)
feeling bleesed

2010-04-24T20:08:00.000-07:00

sometimes, when u're alone, in a silent atmosphere,
alot of thingswill eventualy come to your mind. and thr's a tendency for us to hve the imagination dat ...like...
u're standing out the circle and.... looking at things moving on when you're in static.

i just dont know wht to write. thr's too many things in my mind now.

too many feeling im having now.
happy
sad
dillemma
self shock
laughter
tears

all sort of diff feeling.

siting here and type no nothing.

realise

2010-04-22T06:16:00.000-07:00

i realise. i do.
i love you than anyone else.
eventhough you treat me as a stranger.

2010-04-03T21:56:00.000-07:00

i haven been posting since.. ages ago? haha...
but thats a thing i realise, time flies. even though theres 24 hours, but it make me feel as if like only 23.59 hours.. haha.... ok . cut the lame off..

hm... nothing much...
i just know i must
1: find out something
2:do something bout it
3:jia you on doing it.

not in a good mood actually. sigh.
yesterday is not my day.
but hopefully today is.

*will uolad photo soon.
chaoz

im. totally lost.

2010-03-02T08:28:00.000-08:00

somebody. please tell me what m i suppose to do. PLEASE.

2010-02-28T08:33:00.000-08:00

gosh. today is 1st of march. hm...kinda....ya.. kinda.....

okay. i dont even know what i wan to type. lol!!

weather is rather hpt recently. im getting fever and headace so kau lat.

and towards the ppl that i din reply or anything, im sorry. im not doing dat on purpose. im really busy-ing when u call or msg. so sorry for the ignorance=]

ya. of course il get moody and sad and emo this few day.
no worries. i will stand up.
AGAIN. lol... sounds like ghost...

going to be another burden for my parents and waste money again. sigh!

and currently, eventhough ive accepted the fact, i still cannot decide what the courses that really suits me and i really wanted.

its all bout money.
when u dont pay, ul study what is given.
when u pay, ul study what u believe u interested in it and which lead u to a bright future.
so, ul make every sen worth of what u've invest.

unless, ur piku prints money. and simply u just wanted to spend some time there finding entertainment , then thr's ntg much to say la.... hm.

actually. i hate this que. ive been thinking since form 5.

WHAT M I SUPPOSE TO STUDY.
totally NO IDEA of what m i going to study. sigh...

sombody... enlighted me plz.....

blank.

2010-02-26T02:42:00.000-08:00

my mind is full of things. but at the same time, my mind got nothing.
i think i can be tears donator.
its a non stop dripping on 25 feb.
mainly because of result. and.... someextra thing which really makes me feel frus.

i become very emo and moody. i hate asing my self what i wan and what i wan to study.

i wan to graduate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im desperate! ya i desperate for local university

chasing lion? or lion chased???

2010-02-20T20:10:00.001-08:00

now is 12.10pm.

845 am which is this morning ... breakfast at restsurant taman rashna.

eh???? saw lion dance apparatus. but haven perform.

so me and uncle was talking bout it. nowadays less lion dance already....

then i was thinking, if theres a lion chasing human. but it do stop bothering me... i mean that ques cause my big aunt INDIRECTLY say i "be seng mok" cause i din pour tea for her. and my sis which sit right to me, she does pour the tea for her.

damm her. irritated me. spoil my damm good mood. next time i sure pour the tea ON you but not TO you.wakakakakakakkak!!!!!

okaY... i souund bad i know.. but who cares...

so. the lion dance started...

after 10 min... the lion reach my table... uncle choose to take pic with the lion.... then give ang pau....

out of sudden. my sis suggest to ask my parents to take picture with the lion too..

dah lah im the youngest, so its very obvious that its my job to BRING BACK the lion...

*note*
IM AFRAID OF LION !!!! i do mean lion dance punya lion. but i love the drum thingy and the ping ping piang piang qing qing qiang qiang stuff...

i wanted to ask the lion to turn back. but i ver scared. so when the lion turn around, i tio chi kia. so i RUN... and the best part is, TH LION CHASE ME one round.. a big big roung of the table....

there it goes.. i started screaming and ppl start watching DRAMA...

turn out to make everyone laughed. gosh.

MENSIASUIKAN SAHAJA MAN!!!!

after all... it make me no appetite...sigh...

damm

2010-02-16T08:08:00.000-08:00

i hate this year chinese new year. hate ast min cancel. hate last min confirmation. hate to organized anymore.

tot that organized will get to gather everyone. put in so any effort and spend so many time to do all stuff.
nobody will appreciate. NONE! NIL!

IL never gonna organized anymore. in such a busy and hurry days trying to organized thing, NOBODY wan to cooperate and put in effort. fine, its okay.

THANKS AND THIS WOULD BE THE LAS TIME.

TRY TO VOLUNTEER and help since none wanted and dont give two shit face. din give respond , las min cancel. give me face black black to see. then its okay.

wana know how tired of doing all thi thing without hoping any rewards but only hope for confirmation and attandence? try wat ive been doing then.

ya. wana mad at me being so rude then go ahead.
i also dowan give two shit anyore.

these day. fark!!!!!!

and to my dear sis in law, ths is not the first time. PLEASE KINDLY CHARGE MY LAPTOP WHEN YOU HAPILY FINISH USING MY LAPTOP WHICH IVE FULLY CHARGED!!!!!

FISH 1 KG HOW MUCH? PRAWN???

2010-02-10T09:17:00.000-08:00

HAHA!!! i just finish post up the other post. so im here to share my feeling. but b4 dat. sorry to sheena dat i cant keep my promise. haha.

so, back early today (cause dowan see my omg boss face)
get into ar, mum tell me dad come back today.
she's bit unhappy cause my mum ask him bring SEPULUH EKOR IKAN, my dad brought back 56 kg of fish and 68 kg of prawn which catch this morning before selling it just now. haha

since its so so so alot, i ask my mum to sell to others. so, she contact few neighbours and reltives.clock strickes 730, i finise my dinner and my daddy reached. mum n i start measuring prawn. and the venue is on top of my dad car. its a frontier. mini lorry like ford car.haha...

i feel so weird cause it would be my first time to sell tose things especially with my family.really weird...

so, i end up to be the one who deliver fish to neighbour, collecting money and taking out seafood from ice box... theres a lobster too!!! REALLY BIG when i say its really big. haha.

the feeling is undescribeable.... i dont know why. but serious fun cause im ordering my dad to do things for me!! wakaka!! asing him to bring me news paper, open the door... pick up phones and etc. haha

it might looks like im cruel, but, good for him cause i help him sell and he help me do those work. muahaha. mummy is so so so busy calculating and measuring.

lol. only one word to describe. MEMORABLE!
haha... even though i smell fishy and "prawn-y"... but i love the joy.

i bet not much ppl do thing dat like what ive done just now. haha. so business end at 1030 where all the fish were sold out and medium prawn left few kg. haha.

the best part which make me angry when i heard my mum forget to keep the big prawn for me -__________-""

haaha! its okay then. il have it next time haha. the big prawn is about as big as my palm excluding the head and as fat as my palm too! haha

its an excitement to enjoy.great to share and post it here.=]

:its weird why there's a creature like dat.even though it looks pity when i hold them, but i think they feel proud cause making human and other living thing happy when having them.
may you all RIP.
thank you=]

and.....

good night1.37am-11/2/2010

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2010-02-10T08:58:00.002-08:00

okay. actually i wanted to put up my promition for chinese new year last sat. but i end up sleeping at 2am every night cause of.... actrually i dont know i busy what. haha its actually im helping anyone that wanted their finger to look different and nice during chinese new year. got my 3rd customer ytd... finised design for her dat time was about 1 somthing. so din update blog again.

im calculating very very very SUPERB cheap where fake nail normally is rm88, i only count rm20.00 to rm 25.00 haha... see? its cheap cause im not counting workman ship payment. only count the materials...

so feel free to contact me , hope your finger nail look gorgeous!! ahha

okay.the second thing is... im really fedup with my IDIOTC JOB. it may sounds bad and weird cause previously you all maybe heard i quite enjoying that job.

ya. its only dat time. but definetely not now. holly shit my boss show her WHAT EVA TAIL was dat.

its horrible. terrible and serious vegetable.

diu. pls do not buy things over there. service no good., lan c and sumur tiau ke. plus serious look down on people. worst still, only layan rich customer. diu!!!

freaking bias. like male. dont like female.

kiam siap on salary but earn damm cickening alot!! omg.

really betahan her face. no matter how beautiful you are, you dont have the attitude.

you are not just a horrible woman. but a TOTAL LOUSY BOSS.
you deserve it lady.

thaipusam wasnt a public holiday? bare that in mind dat u're living in malaysia. not australia.

damm. she really pissed me off.

if she wasnt miss lim ex student, for the past 4 day already leave the stupid place.

let you feel the importance of me when i leave thias chinese new year.
U'L REGRET!!!!!!!

chinese new year promotion???

2010-01-30T08:04:00.001-08:00

bah!!! im looking forward to it. give me 5 more days. il reveal to all of you. hope u'll like it.=]

not in good condition.

2010-01-22T06:49:00.001-08:00

feel really tired the very next morning when im awake. mind only lock with work now adays. i really miss school life alot. can skip class or even school whenever we like. now. the responsibility has even be bigger.alot of unwanted thing will happen in and out on the day.

im really not feeling well today. everything goes wrong when my boss received a complain from customer. ya. the next thing is, we are the next victim. no matter what we do/done. in her eyes. we are wrong. condition get worst when she's that type of typical stubborn person. sigh. maybe, this is just the beginning.

learning to be PATIENT is a HUGE thing to take note off all the time.

i just know that everything seems to be very "pek chek" today.

i hate it alot.everything doesnt seems right.

a quick update.

2010-01-21T08:04:00.001-08:00

two more weeks to chinese new year!! omg!
its mid nite now.tired. just back from work.
saw setia eco park boss. dream to be his wife after all with my boss. lol
shall update those picture this sunday. today is... friday. lol!
will take few picture of valentine special.
get my own laptop=]
getting fatter. wtf! haha
getting older=[
getting sleep-ier.lol

.....

........ some times, when thing mean to happen, there's no other any way to stop it to happen. truth is always there. truth is always cruel. just depends on how you settle it and face it.

......
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i wan to buy skirt-___-"""

bye 2009,,,,,

2009-12-31T05:29:00.000-08:00

wakaka!! this would be the last post of 2009=]

quick update.
1. i just finish working. haha!!! at star garden. as a florist . the shop is right beside station one klang
2. im not having a holiday tmr. il be working=[
3. i attended jiunn yi bro wedding and be their wedding emcee. i sounds really like an aunt dat nite. haha!! but i really get experience.
4.going to count down later.
5. i almost finish watching all the movie in cinema.wakaka!!!
6. i just back from singapore. haha. nothing much to shop actually haha!!!
7.ive been doing nothing for the past few days actually.
8.i went to ah ma house for cup cakes party.lol....
9.im planning something. i hope it comes true within this year b4 may. sigh.
10.i meet SOMEONE.

dat's all for now fren.
i do miss you all.
all means stk+convent=]
i know ul miss my laughter alot. wakaka=]

lastly.
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE! ENJOY =p

31.12.2009

wakakakakkakakakakaka

2009-12-12T06:42:00.000-08:00

muahahahahhaha!!! FREEDOM!!!!!!!!
Blah... siau!! yes i am!!

im really free from books. haha.

looking forward for good job currently...

gonna enjoy top the max!! haha...
heading singapore next week!!!

when m i suppose to cut hair??? haha!!!!!
when m i suppose to dye hair???
when m i suppose to ... to.. to....... er.... aiya.... cin cai. haha!!!

i know xmas haven pass... but im crazy over chinese new year now~~ haha

kinda sleepy actually. but stil okay kua...

i dont know wat the hell m i crapping about la.. haha!!!

but i know 1 thing for sure... my pimples. sadly..... haven recover...

i cant upload pic ppl.... so.... er... paise ar.. haha!!!!

im gona miss smk tinggi klang... a place where alot alot alot of "rubbish" to crap with. wakaka!!!

kinda worry for my result actually... but still.... aiks. its ok la. not sure il be alive til dat time. so i enjoy this horrible moment first. haha

btw, deepest condolence to tph. sorry to hear dat. hm... hope u r fine enough.

and erm.... thanks for every1 who celebrated my burthday.. haha. have a blast on this year!!! haha

i dont know how to start it. but... just want to spilt it out.

>the old U dat im thinking of
>the old U that im waiting for
>the old u that im missing for
>the old u that im caring for
>the old u that ive ever meet
> where the OLD YOU has come to the end.
il put a "." here
because the NEW YOU had appear since long ago... sorry that i din notice it.

pathetic.

last post before stpm....

2009-11-13T05:57:00.000-08:00

have a quick update now...

totally no mood to study. i dont know why i happen again.. sigh!!

so so many things in my brain. but it seems like theres nothing in my brain...

coming monday going to be my last assembly.. gonna miss those moment... friends speech this and that... aiks..

gona stop blog now.. cause got a stupid monkey keep rush me... eat shit him.!!!!

chaoz ppl!!

13.11.09

wish me luck

hahahahhaahhah

busy lately

2009-10-17T03:43:00.000-07:00

count down.......
30 days left to meet my 4 "husband"
i love u baby... i really love u... u were the one and THE ONLY ONE... ER.. i do mean.. u were the only FOUR... lol!!! yeah.. my babe "history" my dear "general paper" my sweetheart "econs" and my darling "bm" paper.. there u go man... i love u all so so much... i hope u love me too... as time pass by.... i hope u see the love in me... haha!!!

siau!! im really siau!!! haha
yeah!! im siau!!!

blah... i dont even know what the hack m i doing now.
I CANT STUDY!!! WHERE IS MY MOOD???!!!!!!

i hate this part right here!! its S-U-C-K-E-D!

blah... jia you jia you jia you...

i spoiled my phone. its now at hospital i think...sigh. its bcz of something... i ... blah. ok ok. i throw my phone. but never tot it would be that serious injured.

i din tell mum.and i told her i might be buying a new phone. this fon with me only 4 months i think. i love my phone. but at the same time i hate it when it restart + auto-off + hang + alarm din get work every single morming when i need to go skul.

got no fon currently. so using my second phone.
i cant live without music!! haiz. but its a good choice. i do not need to spend my time on it for this up coming two months.

pls devil... dont "seduce" me.
i need "it" for my future undertaking.

god bless me.
god bledd every one.

not going to celebrate birthday. cz cannot go out yet dont wana waste other ppl time jz bcz of my birth-day.

p/s: celebrate junior birthday testerday. tired and funny thats the only words can describe.

im back!!!

2009-09-18T02:26:00.000-07:00

phew!!! i know i know its been a long long long time iv ever update... haha!!! not goin to update much cz my eyes were really dry... just back from 5 hours class non stop... hm.. something to "pen" down actually...

1st- i hate you and you!ya you!!! im being fooled.. both of u sucks to the max!!!hahahahahahahahaha! u made me moody. fcu*

2nd- gosh.. trial is over... result improve i think but still kinda *sucks* lol!!

3rd-to my bestie : paise la.. im having trial.. kinda abandoned ul.. promise si kut tau next time go pasar malam k? and this tue if nt going to have lunch with ul, im sorry k? haha

4th-u annoyed me. serious.

5th- i hope u can depends on yourself during exam k? hm...

6th-i got lots of post haven post up..wakaka!!!

7th-waiting for mte and mppte.. wow!!!

8th-im going to make a promise to my self to go all out for my stpm. if i turn ugly. pls dont critisize me haha!!!im going to "all-in" this time. haha!!!no matter wat result i get, i hope im ok with it. karma on result? i believe so...haha

9th-my mum approve for me to take nail art this dec!!!! my 7 years dream come true!!!! if i graduate on that course, im going to "big big celebrate" wakaka!!!

10th- im leaving "school" .... haiz.. no more uniform . no more school shoes . no more teachers no more canteen no more table chairs no more mural no more school politics no more nasir no more najib no more pn yap no more fatihah no more hanafisah no more library no more dewan putra no more pengajian am no more economics no more muet no more bahasa melayu no more facing public nuisance no more history and of course NO MORE MR RAMA!!!!muahahahaha*sounds evil?* biasa la tu... haha

but the most sad is.. leaving frenz... and few juniors... like @@@ , ### , $ , %%% and *** haha... simply type only lar... lol!!! i mean the symbol k? zzzz...

and im leaving 19 going 20... phew... have to HAVE TO really grow up.... increase both iq and eq is te most important=] jia you all stpm 2009 candidates.

kita sama sama all in okay? haha!!!

a sight is just a sight.but a KISS is always a kiss.
18/9/2009

pissed off!!

2009-07-06T04:34:00.000-07:00

i dont care what are u going to think of me.. but. there u go man!! get the shoot and feel ashamed of wht u did!!

got things, u let teacher inform me.
got things, out siders inform me
got things, NOBODY TELL ME!!
im holding a post of vice president.
and there!!!
NO ONE!! ya correct. i din type wrong! i repeat.
NO ONE
had inform me theres a meeting.
Nobody tot that im alive in that club.
IM INVISBLE huh?!

meeting , changes , organization and all happening.
you all dont even tell me. is dat so?
is dat how u respect your fren which DIFFERENT class from u?!

since u so LOVE to IGNORE me,
i wont attend meeting anymore. even i go,
I WILL ONLY SIT THERE AND KEEP QUIET!

btw, i dont think so u all would have que to ask rite?

let him (the other vice president) decide all. talk all. but din do nothing at all!

there u go man!!

SENIOR ONLY CHOOSE U AS VICE. NOT PRESIDENT!
if u are caliber, senior were already choose u!!! not him.

pls pls pls baer in mind that u were the VICE president.
NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT president.

and pls u!! ya u!! (if u were reading my blog.
pls!!! nonid to keep ask ppl to do so.

cause it wont happen. even it does work. nobody will hate me like HATE you bcz i know im much better than YOU!!!

ya, i know as human v cannot say that, and even i might be dont have the right to say that. but but but
there is an exceptional!

that is u!

i wont keep my mouth shut as long its about u!

ppl say out things hope u will CHANGE.
willingly to say thought that U WILL CHANGE
and too bad!

u were living in denyer!

u lie to yourself and u know what? u wont improve.!!

u know y ppl WILLINGLY exchange name tad with me but not u?
bcz ppl dont want to turn so hoorrible like u! and they dont hope their name will let u spoiled!

U DESERVER IT!
(nonid say name also know its u)
OBVIOUSLY!

thnx 4 reading this post><

dead

2009-06-28T02:12:00.000-07:00

3 more months to go !!! stpm!! omg.. swt!

ok.. i found my blog was like.. dead.. no colour no this no that.. damm sien paise ya=]

me too shan. i cant get back to study mood. feel weird to be at class. swt!

tired + boring.
mood: -ve

feelings

2009-06-28T02:04:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i wonder why didnt u msg me.
why i must be the one who is the one to msg u 1st.
As time pass by, things change. you said if there's "heart" everything will remail the same.
So does it mean one of us dont have heart?

i remember when we 1st meet.
Form 1 rite?
we hate each other so much. It become worse when after the chinse dance at kwang hwa.
Form 3. we become so close after pmr.mainly because i went to your class for moral.
form 4 first day.u were absent.and we were in the same class.
after u came, u sat beside me.
for the 2 years we were been quarreling playing eating drinking and doing assignment together.
even toilet we went together.
Ive been complaining that u were always late.and yes you are. even now.just like how you all know my speech that i dont have money.
but we dont blame u and already make it as a joke now.

after form 5.when u started driving. inside the car and u heard the song. eventually you will dial up my number and tell me that u were thinking of me.
Ever since u get to that coll which u superb hate still, u change. but still ok at that time.
you were down. i cant help. u were sad i cant help.
what ever that happen to you , i cant help. as u say, thanks god u found him that by your side all the time.

when u get your end year result, u werent satisfy with it. but no matter how, all of us support in what ever would be your decision.
it happens when we often go out. subang subang and subang.
until your parents called and scolded me.
i dont blame that if that u din explain.or they scold because there's a reason behind.
But the thing i know is our relationship get worst from there.

You said if as a friend, you will ACCEPT as who m i.
i appreciate it. and really feel so sorry and apologize if u do think i back stab u.

thank you that you really accept as who i am.

but ways doenst stay that sweet forever.

i hate u when u dont take the initiative to msg me.
not even a hello.
not even a i miss you my fren.
maybe i should refer back to myself cause me too din even msg u rite?? but if i msg u , would u reply?
u were rich. phone bill dont even cost anyting to you. is dat only 2 guys u were to care about?
only them who take care and by your side?
only them u refer when u really down and
is dat so we called as friend?

i admit i mind all of that. because i feel dat i lost the friendship between you and me.
trust,love, everything just gone like that.

i jealous because u dont msg me. my name doesnt appear in al your blog, face book,friendster or even anything.

ive thinking very long time ago should i msg u. but i ended up posting blog now.
im really sad and really disappointed of what had really happen.
im happy that u found your coll life because u enjoy it. but i hate myself of hating you because u made me sad.
i cannot accept all this even things happen even its already been so long.
i miss every moment when we were "young"
i miss when u cry with me when i express my feeling to you.

i miss every moment.

and we have grown up.you have your own life but too bad im still leaving in that memory.

friendship never ends.
is dat true?

swt!! orientation week=]

2009-06-28T01:42:00.000-07:00

1st af all. cONGRATULATION to all junior that uve graduate your Orientation week.hehe!!!

Day 1

me and haziq were the mc. everything is so fine but the feeling of nervous cannot be expelled=]

nothing much happen and me keep scold ppl=]

Day 2

nothing happen. they choose haziq to be mc bcz i keep scold ppl.haha!! (maybe oni lar..)

Day3

Pencarian Foster!!! haha!! enjoy the feeling. im kinda scared too cz too many ppl surrounded u asking for signature=]

ADOI!!! im far apart with my 2 little junior MR.TAN WENG HOU & MR.TEOW KIEN GIAP.hehe... one very polite very manners.. one pulak very very cute=]

LURVE them much much!! haha!!!

too bad i scared them by quarreling with chin heng because of his junior. damm!!

aiks.

Day4

they make me feel that im teacher..haha!!

they suppose to find teachers for signature..mana tau i stuck at staff room...swt! haha

THE DAY!!! DAY 5

its the most heptic day after all.we dont have enough sleep and everything have to be really rush... swt!!

games prezzie dance everything is really under control.haha!!

so lucky.

and before we announce that they graduate, ah jo gave speech. all of us standing at stage.

yin yin on my right and siao po sin yee on my left.

yin yin say: siao po... v pi sai who tears will drop first

sin yee : who scared who? come lar...(she very garang and samseng wan. even chze hsien scared of him.haha!)

manatau... i cry first... SWT LA!!!

haha.. every1 tio chi kia... and i cry really loud.. so damm paise ..haha!!!

when everything ends,,, junior shake hand with us and say thank you.. it make me fell like as if my son married or my daughter marriage..haha!!

everything ends in good condition..alot photograph been taken too=] happie!!

most siau is that nite, chor yau ask for a mte ajk meet up at station one..haha!!!

ENJOYED!

Serangan musuh pertama=]

junior kien giap prezzie=]
babi weng hou prezie.haha

me n siao po sin yee

back stage play ful me n waikit

me n haziq.

juniors...
backdrop!!!committee and committee's juniors..hehe

lastly me and my 2 little junior.
kien giap (right) and weng hou(left)

the end=]

yippie!!back to post

2009-06-08T04:42:00.000-07:00

erm.. currently at chiina poo house.. lol!!so free waiting for jolin lao haha jolyne actually to finish her bath...zzz and then... go for dinner... i just finish my first week holiday.. going thru the 2nd week of holiday..hehe...
very busy currently.. so will upload pic when im really free.. lol!!!

busy cz of study? no of course.. bz cz of ,MTE...ops.. change name liau..
its MBU (MAJLIS BANYAK URUSAN)

AJK MTE pls dont kill me=]

k la... gtg. lazy to type=]

welcome=]

2009-05-12T06:59:00.000-07:00

ok.. people.. you know how "SIAU" i am... but we have to be strict in order for the junior to respect rite?? so.. er.. i know la.. im kinda really strict.. because i have to=]
dun blame me.. and i hope i can tahan NOT TO SMILE in front of them..wakaka!!!!

jia you all senior=]
especially ajk mte.hehe!!

dun worry, after ow , il laugh down the roof again.><

susinsinsu=]

alot! messy! haha

2009-05-12T06:40:00.001-07:00

haha... pls pls pls appreciate this picture..

this might be the last picture il take. haha. cz its all the same... hehe.. he sleep scold and MUMBLE all the time=]
our dear butterfly fly fly~~~happir wesak day!!!!=]
bath for baby buddha...
saw this? hehe... we took freaking 5 hours to finish it.. start at 6 and end at 12 mid nite(friday nite)and it is really a nice scenary that day of it=]
we never even stop to rest..zzz but.. we were really happy of the out come=]
oya.. for the last few post i told ya ppl im attending ponggal fastival rite?? here it is..
this is column..in normal language.. we call it.. erm... coloured rice decoration.hehe.. we won the 2nd place=]
paise... come back to flower day.. er.. ops.. should be.. wesak day.. haha... they spend the whole morning til evening to done this.wooo~~~ normally il do it. but this year got class.. so eneded up me alone and shernam kor kor design the top pic flower deco=]
alex n xiao liang help me go up and water the flower.. thnx^^
blessing=]lantern
water flower-flower water..zzz
ops!! haha.this is not part of wesak day. haha!! mona monalisa instead of MONALISA..haha
oya.. this is me... with saree=]
me and dear Pn.Dana..haha
i berjaya to "mengurat" mr Guna..hehe
wow.. i oso duno wat happen.haha
me n shi yong. thnx for bringing me for the erm... haha... in a word, THNX=]
hahahahahahahahha mydkny=]

thnx for watching.. the end.. haha. its messy i know. paise.. now noly upload. kinda busy lately=]

I HATE YOU.

2009-05-12T06:36:00.000-07:00

i HATE BETRAYER
i HATE BACKSTABBER

I HATE YOU!

who on earth can tell me he/she doesnt hate that type of ppl?

my ring... ring .. ring...

2009-05-12T06:35:00.001-07:00

haha!!! Jolyne Lau!!! i found my ring=] haha

cc.

2009-04-11T05:33:00.000-07:00

fuck!ergh! what a day..

just finish swimming with those human and now ended at cc.today exam..zzz...
i hope result out would be good.at least band 4 or 5. pls pls pls dun be less than dat.

just received call.. mummy.my mistake cz i din tell her i eat outside today.
there she go... no hello but alot od booms throwing towards me.
ergh!!!!!

sienz. b4 i 4got, cerd:congrats you got new "babies"
shin n jo n cerd :thnx 4 da wishes.. appreciate it. phone no cred currently so din repky... paise. i dont think so il reply these days. cz.. dunno la... aiks

i feel dat the previous post is abit too "eyaks" lol... c how. maybe deleting it. zzz...

i got a news from "sum 1".. his friend told him that da guy i was writting about is another "human".. lol.. so funny. dats human...
MISTAKE AND MISUNDERSTANDING

M&M..

ZZZ... i dont even know what m i writting about.

all for nw. thnx 4 miss lim for that key chain=]

happie?sad?

2009-04-03T07:14:00.000-07:00

i was so so so excited because tommorrow.. sat, is PONGGAL FESTIVAL..hehe.. my fren, indians invited for a ponggal festival which will be celebrated tmr at dewan putra 9 am.

but im too very nervous because today got such exam.. econs ppl.. aiks..ive been really really studying.my effort is really there.commitment.everything.wow.

and this morning,chin heng msg me and say...he is going to fetch me cz qi jia not goin to school. i dont know why.

and after recess,chin keong and hamsap kia went disappear.and i got speaking exam.aiks.
i made a harsh decision to ask daddy fetch me...he say ok.. and i knew my decision was RIGHT.

before leaving house,i saw my uncle.lol.he is back from aussie again.hehe

then i reach SV quite early.when every1 was thr, i phone up qi ke jia. he say he will be late.so i inform miss lim. then she say mun jie and qj is already been blacklisted at school.aiks.

after a moment he reach, i turn and say

me : oi budak.teacher say you been blacklisted.
him: o.

and that was his only answer to me.his reaction was...undescibeable.

i dont wat the hell is wrong woth me.my tears went drop without reason.
my mind full of questions and memory.

i dont even know what is miss lim talking about. then i decided to go toilet.

and i told sueh yeen.she was shocked i think.

and i started to be damm moody.

then.. there it goes the exam.im being so nervous.i dont know why. and i FORGET ALL DAMM FORMULAE!!ergh.

im superly frust and pek chek during that time.

again.my tears drop.and i really dont know why.(can any1 explain?)

and my mind is full of HIM.

wen ask y m i crying. lol. miss lim get to know too. paise betul.aiz.

and so. i told wen then wai quan.

then marilyn msg me out of sudden and he ask m i ok... you know.. frenx... sure will force til say rite? n i told him.
thnx ppl or lending ears.

m i too good to you til you avoid me?
or because my attitude problem?
izit because im not as slim as other gurl?
or izit because you thought that i love you?

your ans will only be "o." "hm." "a."
you know how hurt it is when im teling you so many things and your respond was only that word?
sometimes i really feel like telling you, i hope WE ARE FRIENDS.but can it happens?
do you treat me like how your buddy ?
or all these while im only being "one-handed"?
do you care for me?
do you?
as a fren?

i ask you a que.what if i die a day. will you cry?
you know what is your answer?you say DUNNO.
you know how hurt it is?

you know how my heart will feel when you were telling that "thr's ntg much to say between us?"

i miss the moment when you ask "will you be my fren if someday u become thin?"
you know how it feel?
i can really feel the friendship is there.
now???

first person that i spoke to when im at 6b7.
first time of l4f u bring me to.
first time a guy fren bring me fro and back from school.
first time bringing a guy to c doctor and act like a mother.
first time treat a guy as a really best fren.
and THAT'S YOU.

but what i get at last?
a no answers questions??

i really wanted to make you talk much. but the extend that you can say is only 5 words.
which is just now.

"are you following my car?"

ever since i decided to put this incident on blog. im ready to face anything which was you were feel AWKWARD AND NOT TO SPOKE TO ME.
ANYMORE.

also. i realise my bestie found her coll life is good now.she meet her bestie. and ive lost her.

my tears arent dropping.
but im crying really loud now.

tears.
frenship-lost.

friday night???

2009-04-03T06:53:00.001-07:00

suppose to upload photo that day.. too bad.. was really very busy these days.. and im really tired.exams exams exams.. stress.stress.stress.

and i nearly forgot about BLOGGING...lol.

past few days.. tuesday i think... ive got a "fight" with elaine teh...

bah.. nonid to say also know why la rite?? THE SAME OLD HER!!
WITHOUT BRAIN.. she can speak. i wonder how.. hm..

so.. i was telling her...

me: elaine a.. i wan go dana class liau.
her: owh.. ok..

(i turn and walk away.about three steps then i turn around and say again)

me: elaine a. if you dawan to jaga my maruah,IM OK,,, but pls JAGA YOUR OWN MARUAH OK?pls think BEFORE YOU SPEAK.

her: (she kisiau and scream)wat ?>>>bla bla bla...
(she threw the book ~ping pong piang~)

i din answer and straight walk away.. plus i din hear what she is really saying cause you know la.. my class is always very very noisy..

after 15 min...

i wanted to go office to take notes.. guess wat?

i saw the fucking elaine teh talking to n dana and crying...

omg...

see la.. how childish she is..

then she went to tell pn patmA(our caunsellor) the same story..

and then... she "reported" to miss lim...

(i know you all must be wondering why she dont feel thirsty rite??
let me tell you then...

she brought 1 litre of water ma..heiyo)

and so i get a msg for miss lim...

she say... she thinks dat i SHOULD APOLOGIZE TO HER.

after i read that msg.. im so.. FIRE!!
sumur she claim to miss lim that because what ive said, she WANTS TO CHANGE SCHOOL AND STOP PN DANA TUITION.

and miss lim say that.. SHE IS VERY VERY VERY SAD...

ppl.. do you think miss lim should have believe her???

tell you what,

from last year she already say she wants to stop school.. lolz rite??

haiz.. pity her.. crap ppl talk crap things..

i went to see miss lim the next day.. i wish i could keep quiet.. and i really do cause i very lazy want to defence for myself.. so i kept quiet all long and just listen to wat miss lim had herad from the stupid-brainless-crapping gal...

guess what?before she find pn dana,she told one form 5 guys about the quarrel stuff.haiz... c...i told you rite?? THE USAGE OF 1 LITRE WATER.

i really using "TALKING" way to espress to her.. but she yell...
6a7 -my classmate can be sure bout it..

too bad.. elaine teh told pur dear miss lim that..

I SHOUT AND YELL AT HER..
BUT
SHE SPEAKS NICELY TO ME..

people...this this elaine...ya..ELAINE TEH YEE LING.

HAIZ..pity her people... pity her because she dont have a brain..

pls pray for her... no need donation..

because at the end of the day,
miss lim will give her back her tuition fees as a thanks to her...

hm...

ending with anger.

im not DEAD=]

2009-03-16T00:02:00.000-07:00

ok.. happie belated to this tan cui ting..haha!!!blur her~~nice cake rite?! haha!!! the whole cake drop to the floor when jo tries to push ting face to the cake.. alhamlullilah rite??lol!!! no cake to eat liau><
i only found this pic in my phone. others cant operate i duno y.so put this 1st...me n jo=]
lastly.. the 6 of us...
next... happie belated birthday to my sifu=]
this pic il only look at my nephew...i duno y..haha!!
si fu cake=]
ok.. this is duno when.. he scolded me and i draw him.. AND i ADDED some nice word for him.ypu deserve it.next time remember to let me go toilet!!
and FUCK dun CURSE your students.cause at the end of the day, even da karma's dun goes to you, you children will get it CAUSE YPU CURSE OTHER PPL CHILDREN!!
PLS GO DIE YOUR STUPID HAIR!!haha
er.. haha.. this is... qi jia... he is sleeping.. and i tie hair for him. FOC PPL!!!
thnx to me as the "hair stylist"
thnx to bee ching as the "rubberband owner"
LOL
pls dun buy such expensive nescafe ok??hehe...like this shot=]
yaya.. thnx to hong yan of drawing this GRAFICAL picture...blablabla..haha
er.. thnx to him=] its surprising.thank you.
and wei siang,,,,, i dowan to PUASA!!AND I WAN EAT BABI!!!
GRRR.haha
my daddy bought this for me... hehe...
.
.
.
.
.
.you tot my dad siau wan a??haha

me and wen at radio station TOILETme and shi yong.. i like this picture cz she look pretty=]
let ul know a big secret... da thing she wear on the body not dress.
its just a piece of cloth..
i repete
A PIECE OF CLOTH.
haha.. with lots of pins..lol!!

continue.. wen singing..hehe
the tallest in the studio is her..haha!!!!!
yoyo!! during my school sports day=]watkins

ops..haha.. chin keong.. there you go=]
with your lollipop...
fyi,they win for perbarisan this year...
theme using:ants.any how,,

still watkins the best=]

2009-02-19T02:29:00.000-08:00

ok people.. sorry for 'lost' haha!!! nonid explain so much.. lazy.. let me show ul some picture to enjoy today. its fresh. this pic below taken by today.19 feb 2009.before recess.. mr rama is PRAYING FOR US.. SO DAT WE WILL EAT TILL FULL FULL.so penyayang rite him???good good.!!got improvement mr rama=] KEEP IT UP!!OWH!!!dun kan cheong.. he is not pointing at me.. perhaps i dun think so he knew dat im capturing him.jz now puji him.. now pulak continue scold ppl..haiz...
DISAPPOINTED i felt for u rama-rama.aiks.
no improvement at all!!!!
haha.no more rama rama and lets cotinue with lebah lebah..haha!!its me!!!i run to 1/2 floor and paint.. its..omg...haha.. on valentine day actually...
this is.. ker shin hard work..hehe
erm.. consider kok thai "design" but no responsibility.haiz.who help him de kknow what i mean la rite?here blog. dowan touch much bout it.
owh. erm.. birthday boi at... buba gum-the curve.and omg,we spend freaking RM60 FOR IT.my heart....my 1 month tuition fees.im serious broke.NOW!!ergh
yaya.stupid qj and clever+sweet de me...muahahahahah
kesian zhi zhong on his birthday..haiz... dragon ball hair+mr rama pants-wearing style..haha!!
my dear lonely bear=(
ops...haha... happie valentine day ppl=}
i promised il show u my class room rite??haha..jz a small part of it.lazy to upload la...
wen ask for help.kesian her doin herself for FREAKING 4 HOURS and.. only a roses PRODUCED.haha!!!at last at my hs.. half n hour finish all...hehe..(does this mean dat i got super power??haha)
my valentine roses from quan,yeen and wen..hehe..TQ TQ!!
o. wen and her "products"..haha
xiao long birthday... then go funa.. and there it goes..i meet vincent=]
er.. elaine wrote this. i bertanggungjawab to capture only.not my fault.
i know the pic is ver erm... not orga nized.. il try to do it better k?? forget to add on.. miss lim give me 14 ferrero rocher and a bookmark-flower with a piece of card for valentine!!!haha.. tq tq!!
and i accidentally deleted my mural. il post it the next post!!tired.
and jun hao!!!pls take note.i talk to you since this year not i like you, its because i GIVE FACE FOR WEE WEN AND CHEE HONG.
you promised me that ul help me and together with me go find out teachers qualification today,and FUCK you never!im doing all ALONE!!and pls! I AM NOT THE ONLY SUB-EDITORS for semarak.if u dare to promise, PLS REMEMBER TO DO SO.and pls dun be like da 2nd elaine.tq
chaoz ppl.tired.

today.haha.

2009-02-05T04:43:00.001-08:00

once upon a time..lol!!!!i damm long din update d la...so happie..now very "hardworking " to reply...kakax!!3.2.2009-send my uncle and family back to aussie... grrr....so sad.. and da "fake aeroplane" beside kfc..hehetop view=]
very long din sit slide d..hehe!!!me and john.
this is qj... his head is full of dat thing..kesian.
NAH!!!this is mr rama!!!the butterfly...
damm him..everyday scold me.
BIG PHYLOSOPHER....
he teach his own HISTORY and not STPM SYLLABUS HISTORY.DAMM!!DAMM!!DAMM!!

klang LIBRARY.shi yong house.haha
shi yong,me and jocelyn.
gong hei fatt choi!!haha
my bro second son.hehe
i wrote this.. one word mising in action.haha
me with.. the word of "fok"haha..i wrote it...
my aunt belanja on the 3rd day.hehe...
all my cousin and me..hehe
picture quality cacat abit.lol
my 2nd sis burthday
erm.. otard with tibits.hehe
me and bro play with da mix-tibits..hehe
miss lim ang pau
inside the ang pau..haha
ok.. this is when...my grandpa funeral.31.12.2008
class cleaning.i hardworking le..hehe
ok..i upload the picture d.hehe..
will upload anything soon.hehe

back!!

2009-01-16T07:03:00.000-08:00

haha.. ppl..im alive.. yaya.. im alive..lol!! okok.. so long din update d.. il upload pictures very soon which is my class room pictures and my ANG PAU from miss lim.
haha!!
i decorate my class like my house.. all is "choi san to" pix..lol!!

and i sleep for my econs exam after 30 min doing all the obj.and SLEEP for the rest of sub que.ppl..HELP!
ops.. i should have said..
GOD.HELP!!

haiz.. and i cant upload picture due to MY SIS!!!borrow my k810i to oversea cz my fon gt tiga g and her fon dun have(lousy excuses)

AND I MISS MY PHONE!!DAMM!!

and i dun have all my contact cz all the name is inside that phone and not sim card.gosh!!kill me pls..lol!!
and the other nokia fon.. have to borroe to my HUGE friend:qi jia.. cz his fon spoil.so ended up i DONT HAVE any phone.so i use my brother HUGE HUGE phone..lol!!

and its super late now.i have to go oi oi nw.damm tired today.
and tmr got class.lol!!so ppl.il upload and update as i get back my phone.

YIPPIE!!
toodles ppl=}

pls dun 4get to smile=]

im dumb!!

2009-01-09T04:42:00.000-08:00

lol!! ive been posting since just now... and when i press "publish post" there it goes...
i post it at my sister blog!! haha!! cz i never sign out.. lol!! im stupid rite? grrr...
so clumsy...

i saw xx few days back.. and he is SHOCKED when he saw me...
excuse me.. IM NOT GHOST K?
haiz.. never thought of things will end up like that...
so cruel huh???

and starting of school...ive been quarelling with him..
even now.. sms... i cant resist it.. and it brings me down to the emo and bad eager...
gosh...

i dont know what is really happening to me...

erm...

2009-01-09T04:41:00.001-08:00

so... today is firday.. the fifth day of school reopen..
i dont know why im feling so so so excited for the first day of school.hahah!!
then...
been lazying and buzying all the time for NOTHING.
lol!!!

and monday,tues and freaking thursday i went bukit raja jj right after school for this 3 freaking day..OMG!!
and mr qi jia aka my driver and mr chin heng was non-stop blaming and complaning me bout that...
eh excuse me..haha!! im not doing it on purpose.. haha!!!

then... erm...owh.. sick til now.. i dont know why.. grrr...
and erm...3 of my fren sat luin together.. i dont know why..
sory to hear that..lol
but its rather funny.. and SAD...

nothing much happens actually..oya... i stop my tuition at a1..
and go for delta.. gosh.. i think il be thinking for my transport for the whole year..grrr...
and..attend meeting..lol!!

sports la... this la... that la...
worst come ECONS EXAM...help me.. grrr...
so scary...

so means dat.. erm.. very long din blog d.. and jz nw read ppl's blog...
and i realise...
somebody is hiding something from me.
i dont know i should have blame or not cause i feel rather pek chek and like out-of-it cz i aspect the person will inform me.. but they dont.. ya.. its "they" not individual...
this is what we call friend?NAH!!

im ending this post with anger.
damm!

sick.

2009-01-04T06:23:00.000-08:00

im really sick.sore throat,flu,cough,and fecer.
i woke up at 10 and after breakfast,my cousin went home.
she's back from aus so i ask her to stay v us ytd nite.
im sick cz of lack of sleep and im under the rain for 3 hours during my grandpa funeral.gosh.
when im back from funeral i let my bro in law to bath 1st.
i was sitting on sofa-watching tv and I FALL ASLEEP.

gosh..

and today,my maid wasnt here again.my mummy say she's going bac to kampung cz tmr morning have to go grandpa grave.
after she left,
ive been sleeping from 1 to 5 sumtin.
mybro keep scold and yell at me ask me wake up and clean the house and eat my lunvh.
i dun bother him and i scold him back.lol
then 5 sumtin he woke me up and gave me a cup of chlorophill..the green water...
and i drink it with 90% asleep.lol
then he force me to sweap and mop the floor.
i cant find stupid broom cz i duno where my maid kept it.so i just mop it.then

go bath and continue watch movie.
im watching 8tv.
the program of gogogo!!!
their location at MY NS CAMP!!
KEM SETIA IKHLAS-SEMEMNYIH!!!!
DELTA ROVER(the lake i used to do kayak and rakit there.
lol.. i miss my camp..
too bad i din get back there and celebrate opening of third badge...hm..
paise.

tmr.. school reopen..wow.. im wondering how could it be.. cz i haven finish all my home work at all..
economics,pa,history..

tired.

you knew it but you doesnt tell.

2009-01-03T07:33:00.000-08:00

its been six days ive never update...tonight.. il do...but no pictures. im lazy plus tired.

ive been travelling up and down for the pass 4 days to my grandpa funeralcz i cant stay there...(there's a reason behind)

and i didnt get enough rest and i didnt really touch any of my books but jostick and jos-paper.

today(this morning)were sending my grandpa to the grave where he bought 20 years ago.
i not so like that place cz its like got nobody to take care of it.
i want a better place for my ah gong.but he insisted there.its not we cant afford but he dowan because...
one of his son(my uncle)buried there.he wanted to u buy the same place but too bad its "out of order" so he bought the ops site.and all of my great grand parent were at Ijok too(the grave)

and yesterday was the last day.i stay there.because it was the last nite.
i feel ashame cz i never take care of the burning jos-paper til mid nite. so me and my eldest sis jaga til 4... but i stiil can make it til 5... so i slept at 5 and wake up at 7 for preparation.

back to the topic,
its yesterday.2 jan 2009.
my grand ma was telling us about my grandpa story.. when he was young.

my grand pa daddy died when he was 1 and a half year old.(its a shocking and a big deal for the ancient ppl cz they dont die that early)

and my grand pa was the youngest of the 8(4elder sis and 3 elder bro)
his "flower name" is Kau Sai.(ancient ppl believe that its good to have those name.cz can have good luck andpass away peacefully.)

somy grandpa bro aka Te Sai promise him(my grandpa to buy him a big "luo-ku" for him to play when he become bigger bcz he dont have a daddy anymore.

and time passes he was at the age of 10.his family is very very poor.he is left with a mummy and his grand ma.. so he have to work.
my grand pa "tumpang" ppl's sampan to catch "ham and lala" with his bare hand and leg.
and there's a type of insect which is very poison and painful always stung on my granpa hand.but he never complain cz he wanted to earn money.and he also help to bake "kuih"-ang ku kuih to sell to the village...

and when he reach the age of 17,he is more wiser now.
he took back the pig ladang(which own by my grand pa late daddy) where his daddy borrow to other ppl and my grand pa continue the "pig's-business"

he work day and nite without resting.

and at his age of 21,he married my grandma.
my grandma is a very very very very rich ppl's daughter.too bad her daddy passs away too early and they have to simply married her away.and the mr.right was my grand pa...

after they married,
they work together the pig business.
my grandpa have to wake up at 3am EVERY SINGLE DAY to cook n feed the pig so can sell...
that time was still poor.. to get the little bit of money....
he have to cycle from kuala selangor to kuala lumpur to sell the pigs...

not easy to take care those pig... cz they were more difficult than take caring of humans...have to eat 4 time a day and bath 4 times a day...

and my grandpa dun have family planning.. so my grandma was pregnant 11 times and give birth 11 times...
still my grand pa is happie and proud of my grand ma cz she willing.
but now.. there's only left 7 of them...
4 babies die.. when they were very young and 1 die of drunk and drive.and the worst.. all also the gender of male...

even after sometimes my grand pa earn sum amount of money.. he spend like he earn very little.. cz he wants to kept money for his beloved child to study.
he never got a chance to study...bcz he got no time and no support.he have to earn money to support his family when he is young.

so he is very lonely and "silent+bored" visited him all the time.. he got no entertainment.. no tv.. no newspaper cz he dont understand at all..
i feel really bad for him.

and..he spend really wisely...
he got a car..at las for his business so he can fetch more pig to kl..and as time pass.. the car batt is low.. so its hardly to start the engine..
so me mum,my mum bro and my mum 1 younger sis will wake up every 4am to push the car fast so to make the engine hot and there it goes...
it happens every morning.. and after all the car pushing and pulling.. my mum and siblings will get back to sleep.

fyi.my mum is the eldest daughter right after his eldest bro.so my grandpa paling sayang is my mum.. i dont know why..

and.. he become very well known at kuala selangor since after he shift house(currently the house he is staying now)..
well known of SUPER HELPFULL AND SUPER HUMBLE.
he is the FOUNDER of Tian Hock Kong.
he is the CEO of 8 persatuan at kuala sel.
he is the vice president of duno wat persatuan kuantan.
he is super ative in these activities.
he is also the person who started to collect money as donation for the old people who dont have family and poor.

he is also the person of handling ppl's funeral.he would be the 1 who construct and does everything for the funeral including the "white-flower taking".

him(kau sai) and his bro(te sai) is the most famous ppl in kuala selangor of being HELPING EVERYTHING for ppl.. even strangers.

normally ppl's funeral.. they will hang probably 3 to 6 banner aka flag of respect. but my grandpa got 18.

and giving out donation to the primary school where he always help and others club...
funeral held for 5 days.each day ppl will come and pay respect.the ppl can come up to 500 people a night.
its really alot.
and thanks for YTL (yew tiong le) to come and pay respect for my grandpa.
and also thanks for the few persatuan where they will put my grandpa name as ceo or director for eternity.even he is death now, still he would be the part of ceo/director.

not only money he donate.he too donate his energy and his sweat.

all this he have now,
all the money was all his blood-sweat money.
in chinese ppl called it "bai sou chen jia"

he said...he like "meriah"
but he was always alone when he is alive.
im sorry grandpa.im really sorry.
leaving you alone with bored and silent.
i hope the ceremony held today will be your eternity entertainment.

thanks to the chinese group where they played those old insturment like gu-zhen for my grandpa.
its expensive to hired them to sing that few songs.but
they come for free when they saw the news paper.thank you again.
to the ppl who pray for my grandpa,thank you.
to the ppl who fold the jos-paper.thank you
tho the ppl who take care of the funeral ceremony,thank you.
to the ppl who remember my grand pa,thank you
to the ppl who really take care of my grand pa.thank you
to the ppl who clea up the surrounding, thank you.
to everybody,thank you.

and even thanks for the gangster and youngster.
i dont know how much my granpa help ypur family/parents,until your parents tell you to pay for the last respect for my grandpa as what your family told you to do even some of it already pass away.
thanks for remembering.

and all ive been typing was just a part.
i hope grandpa you will like the bread and the coffee that i ask ah kun to fetch me go buy and also the lily flower ive made for you.

i hope you received it.

not to show off how grand was my grandpa but im just feel like telling here because i miss him.

not being greedy,
i hope you wont reborn.stay at heaven and enjoy the peaceful life.if if if you really reborn,
i hope you've been born to a rich family.
born with intelligent.
born with hardworking
born with humble and as kind as when you were alive perviously
and born with all the good luck surrounds you.

ypu leave good names for all of us,
and i hope it forever will.

like what the funeral-manager said,
ul always at our big living room and protect us.

im your grandchild, il forever will.
i love you.

the last word.

2008-12-29T19:48:00.000-08:00

today is 30th dec.
a day before new year eve.
a day before me getting ready to clean up my class room.
and the day my grandpa leave me=[.

this morning,my bro wake me up.he seldom do that.unless there's emergency.
i hate him waking me up.i rather his son(johnson) using his leg and kick my head calling my full name and wake me up.
i knew something bad happen.
but i din thought that serious.

he say...
wake up.grand pa pass away already.
i hate him for him making this joke.im very very angry and hate him.

so i stood up and searcd for my mummy.
and i saw her eyes were red. and she's packing.
and i know its all true of my grandpa leaving me.

i hate y grandpa cause leaving us with so much of memory.
i miss his loud voice
i miss his smile
i miss when he is talking
i miss everything of him.
i miss him using my room as his room when nobody wants to stay with him.

i hate myself of never talk to him.
i hate things happen to him before his death
i hate myself of being selfish

i would never forget what he always did on chinese new year.
his milo,his durian,his biscuit.

eventhough sometimes i only meet him once or twice a year,
but doesnt mean i dont know how much he loves us.
he cares for us and he never selfish for himself.

im honoured to be your grandchild.even im just a little girl for you.
im too honoured to be your most lovable daughter's daughter.

but you leave us without a word.
i dont want your money i dont want your harta.
we dont want it either.
because what we wants is your word and your breath.

i still remember the last word that i spoke to you is when you call mum
asking her to buy you your medicine.
you still sounds good that time.
and the second day.
you were still strong and sonuds firm.
but....
i hate to say bye whenever hang up calls.i hope i never hang up the calls.

i miss you grandpa.
tears-chia po.

pictures=]

2008-12-27T22:44:00.001-08:00

ivan say this picture nice.(bcz he's the 1 hu set the angle and timer...) how lame.lunch time.eu yong is hungry.
ivan,waihow,chai,tang(eu yong)
he say its nice if i bend down and take picture.. what you think??
ivan lurve chai's shoes..lol!! actually chai wan stuck van's mouth v his shoe cz he sing non-stop.
the 3 gilaz...
whrs's ivan?
ta da... the 4 of us.. thnks to wai how for this nice shot=]
ops..haha!!
ivan:me.-half chai.haha!!
we are bro and sis not couple dun worry.
chai:me.
ivan:you wan YOU CHAR KUEY??
chai: O M G!!
silly chai..haha!!
he havent fully recover ever since he just came out from MENTAL HOSPITAL...haha!!
chai:van:me:how
ppl:tang,chai,ivan,me n how.
and i like this picture.i dont know why.
taken when at "ivan's house"
lastly..mamaking.hehe
outing of 26 dec at lucky ten.
the 3 guy..grrr..
how:chai:van
ivan tai sai.. wan me stand up and go his place then only can take pic v him...*grrrins*
me and how.
MY RM 300.00 PLEASE.
and me=]
owh.. this is xmas eve exchange prezzie.
yellow bikini from cui ting to sheena=]
jo try to fix it.and fit it..hehe
cerd get fen prezzie.
fen get mine.
but she say it doesnt suit her.
(maybe she dont like it=[)
jo get cerd prezzie.
and i get jo prezzie=]
i din upload lots of picture.. lazy of doing so.. hehe..
and ppl.. if you go bukit cahaya and see ppl walking around.. please dont STARE at them...
because the feeling's like.. grrrrrrr
O M G...haiz..

a typical SWEAT-SWT day.

2008-12-27T07:44:00.000-08:00

26 dec 2008.i went erm outing v chai, wai how and piggy ivan.its dinner.
i wearing so so so proper and ivan say wan go Lucky ten at bbk.. fine then.. and there we go...
so they(chai & how) were "forcing ivan to go "bukit cahaya" lol.. and the kepoh aka me.. wanted to go since i havent go..lol!!*tell u readers a little dirty little secret later*
so they "approve" and let me go.
and badly WAI HOW owe me RM 300.because he spoiled my LEVI'S JEANS.

the next day(means today)
this moring.. i went bah kut teh v my family.. then by 1030... chai come fetch me.
so when ivan pass by a "yu char kuey" stall he ask to stop and chai bought it.
and also thanks to ivan cz bringing chai the wrong direction(eventhough he had been there twice within a week)

so we reach about 11.and they go rent bicycle.
piggy all of them force me to rent and ride but I DOWAN cz,,,,,,,,,,,
I CANT!!!(readers...dats my dirty little secret..hahah!!dont laugh!!)
and at last. i din rent
they cycle(eu yong,chai,wai how and ivan)
AND I WALK OF CZ!!!*grrr*
adn ive beel walking from 11 am to 3pm.
damm!!!
its like hot and gosh.
1st:swt come visit me
2nd:sweat come visit me.
3rd:swt and sweat come together-gether and visit me...lol!!

then we went 4 season hs.. nw is winter of cz..
and is 2degree to 7 degree

and then we "climb" to ivan house.

and then wai how FALL DOWN at ivan's ladder(lol...ivan house ladder)

what happen next?
oya.. we went 2nd time winter hs.. then we went HOME.

lol!! we go makan actually.. at bbk again.. pak li(luckily never kena saman.haha)

then i say wan go watch movie.

chickening chai nearly reach jj d then u turn say dowan go

KANASAI.

then.. we go kp.. since he say very long din go d.. then...

reach car park i say go bowling.but ivan come out v the idea of "dowan his middle finger gone..LAME)

then,, we sat INSIDE THE CAR ... and out of sudden...

**CAR-BOX**

lol... means sing inside the car...(the word come from greenbox) lol

i dont know which cleverguy come out v that idea.

so after quarelling v chai. we went down to the lift. before the lift open, we cabut telling the "lift spoil" so have to gojj and watch movie..lol!!

back to car me n chai continue quarrel..lalala..
and at las he go.

and i promiss him i will treat him..lol
actuallyhis "birthday present"=] sorry for the late..BUT BETTER THAN YOU.I DIN RECEIVE ANY PRESENT FROM YOU=[

and so ngam jo ask me go dinner. sorry but i cant.
before i reply u chai trying to call u you up and ask u to come but duno y cant get thru cz if he call ul know im with who tha's y i din reply you im with who..lol

and we watch IP MAN.
its a good show.

and PROBABLY we lok cute so they check our ic...#haha#
ppl.,.. i know that ul sure read in eng.
as in "AI-PEE MEN"

but actually the truth is

"yip-man"-read in cantonese.

lol!!! so lame...

then wai how come out from toilet and say he cannt pee and want to vomit.lol!! then we force him to mamak and i force him to drink "teh halia"

its good for u wai how.

then oya.i left out 2 things..lol...

1st...ivan's "birdy" let ppl SEE..hahahahahahahahaha!!!
he go toilet.then he ma peeeeeee lo.. (the many ppl together pee wan)

so came a chinese young guy stand beside him and look at ivan"s "pee-ing process"

OMG!!this is insane.. haha.. but its funny... and its crazeee...kesian ivan... pls dun night mare=]

2nd:i saw "XX" at bukit cahaya,, its surprising. IM SHOCK.bcz i never thought of meet him in such a place..lol!!

and.. ppl... i record ivan's concert-true voice when he sing at "his house" and ppl... its "crush by david.archu"

haha..*bluek*

anyway..im tired plus happie today.

thanks to ivan,thiam chai(bro),eu yong and lastly waihow(hehe).

toodles ppl.. il upload the picture soon.

...

2008-12-25T01:41:00.000-08:00

i dont know what to type.also dont know how to start.
clueless..grrr..
and im so lazy to upload picture.next time ba.when my mood return...

so. sometimes i was thinking... am i wrong?
so means that i should stand at ppl's position and think?
alright... standing at ppl's position and think wasnt that bad.. BUT. im not ALWAYS WRONG!!

and.. was thinking .. let say.. if if IF .. i stand on ppl's shoes and think,
will the person do the same thing??
or only just using their mouth and think but never INTERPRET.
so.. its.. hm. WEIRD.

im not being cool, not acting on it, not playing around
and probably im too chong tong for the decision.
BUt.. the decision wont prove me wrong.
and so.. im waiting for this moment.
UNLESS there's such things as MIRACLE happens.

IM LETTING OFF SOMETHING.
officially.
seriously, ive been thinking about it quite long and quite often.
again and again.
non-stop.
at last, i come out with a very wrong and self-ish decision.
a decision that PROBABLY will ruin my friendship.
too bad.
im letting it go.unless she's AWAKE.
knowing what she's thinking and doing.

she's gt her own problem.i know.
and i wish to share with her.
too bad. i dont think so im the suitable person that she need to lean on.
so.. eventually i have to let it off.

from not-so good-friend become very-best friend then become good-friend and now
i think its only just-a-friend.

all the misunderstanding revolve around me.
a-non-stop wan.
was telling myself not to be so NAIVE.
not to be SOFT-HEART.
too bad...all this long i was being naive and soft heart.
cant god made/create our heart "hard"?

ya..again and again stepping into trap.
so isnt this is what they called life?lol...

time flew so quickly.
by telling myself not to think much and stop crying is impossible.
alot.alot of memory created by her running through my mind again and again.
even now.
trying to tell her/msg her.
but i couldnt do so. cz i dont know where to start/how to start and even how to end and where to end.
the best is keep it quite and let it be.
keeping quite is the best-for me.
as time pass by, truth will reveal.
and just let the time prove it.

and lastly,
im not always wrong.
please dont put the blame on me.

one year older one year wiser.

2008-12-20T21:41:00.000-08:00

happie tang chuay people.enjoy a new year life=]
happy chinese new year in advance.

Attn: the 6 of us.

2008-12-20T21:29:00.000-08:00

maybe ul feel bad/angry/pek chek on me or what so ever. but its ok.
i want to tell youll that this coming christmas eve which is 24 dec 2008,
our meet up will be CANCELED.
according to easy every body AND avoid of being ME scold/look at ppl's face,
i wish to stop this coming meet up and own do own celebration.

cerd, you can go celebrate with your cousin aka jie already.
fen , you can go celebrate with your family/relative already.tmr(25 th dec)
can go work in normal condition.
shin , you can go celebrate with ting or family.(ur sis is coming back.perhaps you can go celebrate with her if you wish)
jo , you can go celebrate with your coll fren/cousin/family ady
ting , you can stay at home and celebrate liau.your mum wont so wory.

i hope every1 will be very satisfy on this "PLAN"

anything please leave comment here.

cheers,
susin

today.no title.

2008-12-19T23:42:00.000-08:00

lol...he's name is pow pow.. he is 4 this year.. today is the 1st day he join my house dolly member..hehe.. yaya.. he is the 8tv "mascod"...lol...

my bro get this actually.. according to his anual dinner.. his secretary gave him this.. its actually the secretary husband.guess who is he? lol.. he's the dj of hits.fm...
i not so sure his name is JJ or RUDY..basically he is.. abit fat.. and he is indian.. and he is botak..keke!! thanks..powpow is cute=]
but my bro feel weird of receiving this "special" xmas present..lolok.. proven i go library n LEPAK..haha!!
worst.. i went today.. abit early.. 1030.. 1pm the ppl there say close..gosh.. i din bring fon how to called back home? so ended up borrow from the ppl there... thanks=]
ok.. im not siau of posting this BELL here.. those PROPERTIES belong to MISS LIM.haha!!in order of shout(which is rude) in class asking the student to keep quiet.. so she bought this to kept us silent..lol..
IT WORKS=]
nah.. the siauz...
after tuition.. went sp v cerd and jo...so..
this is cerd..eh.. sorry.. its ching woon... huh? wrong again?okok.. i think she is jo...hm...
huh?! wrong again? so who is she?
okok.. she's si kut tau..lol!!
this is me.. yaya.. i went plastic surgery... so.. i become so slim.. pls ppl.. dun say im FAT already k?ergh!!
(actually the picture is jo aka tau kak ka tio) haha!!

sushi zanmai.. ppl.. i miss the food there.. thanks to cerd bring me go=] its freaking CHEAP...so go ppl and fill ur tummy ops.. stomach there=]

ok.. enough of yummy..
xmas is around the corner..MERRY CHRISTMAS IN ADVANCE people=]
and i saw this actor.. she's.. tvb punya actor..(i duno her name)
actually.. yesterday go sp main is to accompany cerd buy new year cloth.. and also jo la of cz.. at last.. me this no$ gal buy the most.. i bought 2 shirts again. 1 mng purple/meron shirt and 1 vest..lol!!

cerd bought 1 tube dress at roxy...its expensive but ok la.. she can afford..hehe!!
SHE RICH MA..forget to inform.. her daddy give her RM500 for shopping yesterday..and her mummy add RM50 again..omg rite??
ppl.. go rompak her nw..lol..jkjk

we walk from freeking 6 hours at sp... erm... from 3pm to 10 pm..lol!!! imagine you are wearing sandals and walk for the freeking 7 hours... take my mia only..but its ok.. happie good.
so.. i search for my -going to buy nike shoes..lol!!i found that.. but no $ to buy=[!! i want that shoe!! its nice.. its white with gold nike mark on it.. haiz.. it cost..rm...229..yaya..229..hm.. will bring my mum there..

and jo found her loveble jeans at levis...it cost... 240 if im not mistaken.. really nice when she wear it.. most importantly she feel comfortable.. and i can 100% SHE LIKE/LOVE IT ALOT!! also.. the guy that serve us.. hm.. he is.. hm.. yummy.. delicious..lol.. handsome actually... and.. ok.. i smell fishy..lol..il stop it!!*kaka*

left out.. jo bought a shirt at asia avenue..lol!! its expensive but really nice.. trust me. its nice=]
and...so.. we went around and see seeeeeeee...

so i saw this shop out of all sudden..the shop name is.. the dots.. it creats a legend for us(me jo n cerd).. know why??
il tell you..

me:eh.. go there c lo...
cerd,jo:kia la..

so.. cerd is on my left and jo on my right.. i look deeply so i bent down abit(cz i cant see according to my eye situation)

so.. so.. so.. jo also bend.. i duno how on earth she bend... i suddenly i heard "BEAAAAAAAAG"!!!...
OH MY AMITHABHA-ALHAMLULIHAH-AMEN

IT FREAKS ME OUT!! i tot what happen...
i could not talk on that moment.no words can come out from my mouth.i really want to speak but i cant i dont know why...
BECAUSE on that super very moment,
i ONLY CAN LAUGH OUT MY LUNGS!!

me & cerd goes WAKAKAKAKA-HAHAHAHAHA-MUAHAHA-WUKAKA-WIKAKA-MOHAHA-LUKAKA-
ZEEKAKA-
BEKAKA-BUKAKA-hahahahaha...

for that super very 2min.the whole situation on asia avenue is ok the "hahaha" which my voice and cerd voice flattering around..
ops.im wrong
no voice no laughter.only air.cz its too funny.no sounds to be produce.
got la.. 1 miserable and random sound which produce by jolyne. not 1 is 2..
a) *baaaaeeeng*
b) OUCH!!

IM HALF TYPING HALF LAUGHING TIL NOW.

and for the rest of the going-on shopping.. il be the 1 who produce-haha noice.

its so SUPER FUNNY!! haha!! kesian jo..
the whole asia avenue ppl was looking at her.. even got two guys shake their head bcz they too feel _omg_ for jo... haha

oh!!forgot.. the ppl who working on the "the dots" shop...i think he is the owner.. he is kinda abit chubby and wearing smart and the most important he is ON PHONE.
haha
imagine what he will respond on jo's-happening? haha..
cerd imagine
a)jump out from chair and find for aid box.
b)OMG
c)after finish on phone(he ask to hang up call 1st cz got some reason) he laugh like nobody else on earth...
haha
i still cant imagine how funny was that. and it happens right beside me! gosh...
haha

full of laughter and tired and leg pain shopping day.

what you wear sometimes really affect your mood.it too reveals your personality.
lastly...
what we wear really can change our very own fasion statement.

p.s.dont laugh at jolyne lau huey shien anymore.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

email...

2008-12-18T04:01:00.000-08:00

ive made up my mine.ad ive email him right before i offline.
and.
i checked my mail box from the start i switch on my laptop.
ive got his mail.
he replied.
im happie!!=]
but at the same time im sad.=[

and im not crazee.

i think its time to change.

no pic.writing.

2008-12-17T04:56:00.000-08:00

i was still deciding.. whether to send that mail or ont.. ive been thinking and thinkind.. he's back today.. shall i?? haix..this is crazee..

i cannot understand what am i thinking actually..im out from 11 til 7 today.. at hict library.. super lonely super silent but at least i get to study.=]im happie.
tmr will be another day for me to spend at hict library.
i think il get my self 1 spec asap.cz i cant see the writing anymore.haiz!
now suppose to be at cheras pasar mlm.. too bad no car.. *grrr* its ok la.. next time ba=]

and i think i better get myself a new memory card for MY BRAIN.yea...MY BRAIN.cz im losing my memory.. dun say study.. funny conversation that i want to blog in i also forget.. lol

actually i only remembered few..the PERVERT 1
lol.. im not but cui ting aka rooftop is/are..lol!!
she will get excited when talk bout up up down down..hahah!!
its at.. erm mc i think..ya. mc d.. we were talking bout long. then suddenly rough suddenly ting come up with
EXPAND AND STAND UP(with action she show her finger)
people.. nah.. this is cut ting..lol!! dont think she's xi xi man man.. she is a tiger actually..hahah!!!
when i say she is.. i really meant it..hahaz!!

lol!! then come all those.. hm.. when there is cui ting.. there is... HAMSAP conversation...

ok.. another 1...
ting : i later wan go back home to take "chuo aii" to exchange with the pasar malam ppl...
me,shin,cerd,jo,fen:WHAT?you want to MAKE LOVE with pasar malam people?(nah.. i was just creating it)
suppose to be

ting: later i wan go exhange "zuo aii"
5 of us: what?! what MAKE LOVE?! YAYA.. there's ting.. back to normal.. she's high again!! hahah!!

and yeah... the "THE " day we are facing.. this pop out when we talk bout cerd aka si kut tau blog.. her title"the cave" lol..
so we started and ENDED with the "the" too...
the toes.. the hair.. the blog.. the picture.. the water.. the mc d.. and the NIPPLE...
ya.. started by ting again.. there she go...

clipping with the hair clipper(paperclip) to clip on ppl breast.. ops.. nipple.. lol!!

ok.. people who under 18.. dont learn / practice this at home.. those action need consultation...lol!!

and.. seriously.. meeting BECOME OUTING..
lol.. same same la.. still got 'ing-ing' ma right??hheheeee...

really have fun actually..
and IM BROOK!!!!pls ppl...im so kesian=[

this fri-outing to sunway again..hn.. probably will have dinner at "zen mai".. still planing=]

actually.. lots more to write.. too bad.. i really lazy and forget..

ps.. wen..s t o p saying sorry.. hehe.. cz im the 1 who should say sorry=]

oh.. i get complain..from my didi..TEE THIAM CHAI.. happie belated burthday..hehe.. when will you be coming back? really miss you and hope can meet up soon=]

and i msg kah keen(my senior).. he was asking too..how come "kim hong" wasnt inside your blog.."
lol.. i know i ans him rudely.. i replied.." why should i?"
haha!! i dont mean it actually=]

and yea.. here is kim hong..
i too text him today.. asking him how he is.. thanx to him.. he ask me to chill out and ENJOY my last year of schooling day.. hehe... ok... il take your advice..

play hard and study hard=]

i think i will email him after i finish this post.
i cant able to lost him.. ppl said.. chill.. still got 1 year.. but to me.. only half year.. cz june junior will come and register already... this aint good sign(girl junior)..
know what i mean right?hm..

but back to faith.. not mime means not mine.
il let him know rather then keeping it inside....

still.. should i?

meeting?NAH!!haha

2008-12-17T04:22:00.000-08:00

this is what we called meeting.now you believe what's called meeting?bah!!haha!! nothing special... its better.. we never sleeepppp as usual..haha!!cerd's result.. SO CHA!!!!sau pei la..haha!!
back to my house.. and this is what had happen to my bed and my room.. kesian me.. wakaka!! ntg happen actually=]

when jo is preparing.. when cerd is testing..hehe
actually.. she's not insane... she's just a little bit of crazy.. yaya.. CRAZEE!! haha.. she's staring at me actually cz i tease her.(i forget what ive said)
my leg cerd hand.. haha!! terbalik sorry.. my leg cerd hand...oh? terbalik again..okok.. my hand cerd leg.. im correct now dont i??
ya.. another insane.. ops!! sorry.. crazee..hehe!!but it looks really nice.. i like this picture..hehe!!hair clip?nah!!paper clip..
the SIX OF US=]
hah!! there we go.. ing-ing.. rooftop,smalleyes,big mouth,pdi supporter..lol!!
thanx to fen 4 this pic=]
im.. er.. im... er...haha!!hate this picture!!but fen look nice..hehe
si kut tau.. ops.. its te bu and me..haha!! looking at another camera actually=]
yaya.. thanks to jo!!*grr*
looks yummy? it is.. but when you "make" it.. it was like.. *ergh*
"get high get high"!!fir!!
"put ur hands up!put ur hands up!"lol
fen ting jo shin sin cerd
the blurz..
oh??ya!! regarding to this!! i want to complain!! i cannot "sing out loud" according to the stupid glass..grrr actually cannot hear from outside de la..hm..
fen ting jo
ops!! me n cerd.. whr's shin?
ans...lost in space=]

sun-mon

2008-12-17T04:11:00.000-08:00

ok.. this is super weird why i post this rite?lol!! ya.. this is shit!! lol!!damm it i saw it when mon morning waiting for tuition teacher at a1...kakax!!and this... i told you rite? so random?NO!!it happens thru out all the morning!! damm ppl..pls USE BRAIN TO PARK!!
oya... this is sun.. means b4 mon...i went kp.. meet up v jo.. waiting for.. Y2J aka sen mu yi tong.. hehe.. so many ppl.. ren san ren hai..hehe!!

can you tell me which 1 is GIRL and which 1 is BOY? weakakaka!!!
hm. fyi.. i dont know why the person i treasure alot always LATE!! haha!!
and im f**ing tired to blog.. grrr...*no mood*
oya!! b4 i 4get.. on mon.. after class i went lunch v cerd cz ting cant come shin also cant and fen cant AND jo DOWAN come!! grrr.. and YAP CHING WOON let me waited for ONE AND A HALF HOUR!! lol...
luckily that day not so hot.. its ok la
forgive her.. she "tat chia"..*grr*

miss lim class.

2008-12-13T04:27:00.000-08:00

this is what miss lim class is about..lol!!
marks=]miss lim philosophy.. its good wei...
miss lim thought!! so people.. please dont watch tv...ops. dont watch IDIOT BOX..lol
CSI...
oh!!this doesnt appear at miss lim class dun worry..lol!! this happens at my hs.. lol!!after finish buying bra i went home and...bake KUIH..haha...

this picture is so random!!
its nice.. any1??
fyi: i dont sell it!!

now only i realise i haven upload this picture if im NOT MISTAKEN.happie bebebebebebelated burthday to miss lim.
ive got the same birthday date as her=]
lastly..miss lim=]

neway.

2008-12-13T04:17:00.000-08:00

this is before we continue our 2nd part econs tuition..lol
sueh yeen and wen.
santa claus is coming to town=]
then me n wen go neway w her fren..lol!!wen and hui ling(if im not wrong)hui ling,suan,wen
wen & me
hui ling , wen
suan and hui ling
lastly.. the 4 of us.. me,suan,wen,hui ling.

lol!! go neway around 4 then back around 730..kakax!!

photocredit:k810i=]

12.12.2008

2008-12-12T05:37:00.000-08:00

ytd nite b4 i fall asleep i was thinking. should i or shouldnt i.
ive text him since 1 week plus and already 2 times? ya.. he never replied...
i was thinking to email him... would he reply???
should i do as what ive been planning?
i dont know what will happen next. it freeks me out.
this is crazy.this is insane!!
im adnormal..hm
should i tell him?
should i c***h on him?
any1? advice? answer?

im stupid.+moody.

2008-12-12T05:13:00.000-08:00

i woke up 1230 pm ytd.
then i bath
study
sleep
eat
toilet going
and.. i received sheena call...
scene 1:
shin(sheena): hello? whr a u?
me: home.why?
shin: me and ting now at ur house pasar malam.. wan come join us?
me: dowan la.. tired...
shin: what dowan? jz now ask u movie dowan.nw nite market also dowan.apala...
me:1st-lazy
2nd-haven wash hair
3rd-DOMPET NO $.
shin:lame la u. k la. bye

scene 2
shin:hello.open your gate.
me:huh??? for wat?
shin:im in front of your house. can you be faster?
me:okok

scene 3:
me: so how's movie and pasar malam?
shin & ting: biasala.. hot!!
me: ok.. hey.. lets go dinner together.. call cerd and jo pls..

(a few min later)

shin: ok.. all can go.
me:i go bath 1st.
and end up v cerd cant make it cz stomach pain..lol

then i saw wan ECONOMICAL DINNER
at last end up at STATION1.. lol!!
its expensive though!!finish eating.. around 8.. so we went to aeon to check out at greenbox for xmas eve booking.
ITS FUCKING EXPENSIVE
fine.

i missed a scene.. in ting's car.. this is how it goes..

ting:my test-tube is under your chair(while driving over a bump and makes the thes tube bang into each other.. she's talking to shin actually.hopefully shin can took it up.)
shin: HUH?WHAT?!what are you talking about?!YOUR FALLOPIAN TUBE IS UNDER MY CHAIR?!
me and jo:HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!
what the hell on earth is fallopian tube is under your chair? gosh!! haha!!!!

and there it goes with ting getting "high" when talking about ppl BREAST.. jo.. you know why i purposely put big alphabet rite? hehe...

b4 we get back.. yaya.. there is si kut tau aka yap ching woon aka TE BU.. the new name of her's..lol.. she cane v ken b4 we get to car park..lol!!!

and.. back to home watch movie.. then.... sleep... cz today morning got tt..
so when is break time.. we went to kp.. me n wen go toilet 1st.. so yeen wait outside.when her turn to go.. she pass her car key to wen. wen is cold so i help her take. and when reach food court we happily eat.. and habis liau yeen say wan go mc d.. she bought her nudget i bought my rubber band.. and its time.. so i walk kinda fast back to class.. after i cross the road.. then i saw them.. suddenly wen shouted from opposite road asking weather i got took the car key or not.. and i replied NO.this is when i started to run back to them and ask what happen. yeen key's is not v her..

so i ran and go to food court.. i cant find any black key on then table.. its totally ntg. NOTHING!
gosh.. my heart nearly drop out.. so i went over the next table asking whether they saw or not.. the malay aunt smile and say.. nxt time dont leave your keys around k??ive hand it to the information counter...
OMG.. at that moment i jz felt.. gosh....
thank you to who ever and when ever and what ever...

at last we found back the key...

yaya.. sounds that im really the all-bad people...
next time dun ask ME keep then.
thats all...

im emo the whole day today.

when back i tumpang wen car. suddenly she say wan go sing k. so i offered her a 50 bucks voucher...hm... tot of goin green box.. ended up neway and sing from4 to 7.. gosh... its superb omg.. i dont know why. i like no energy now. and SUPER MOODY and i felt that pls bring me home asap. i dont know what happen to me.. gosh..

financial crisis.. ive been really spending alot.ALOT.really alot... haiz...

my feeling now is undescribeable.

bye.

genting trip photo...lol

2008-12-12T04:53:00.000-08:00

im at paris??? NAH!! genting la..lol!!
me and jo.. erm.. i not so remember where are we to took this picture=]
then we go chiong k.. this is what they serve us.. its sup.. insie got rice.. hm.. ok ok la the taste
mei sze,jo,ke li,ki lee.(if im not mistaken they name spells that way=])
7 sumtin.. pm of cz..lol!!
then we went "circus" its crowded.. and you can find alots of pro there.. pro of bkb and stuff.. and this pic show all.. lol.. they are so "tak sabar-sabar nya" hahah!!
look carefully.. there's human in this picture.. hehe...
me and jo again.. she look pale!!
mid nite we went starbucks.. and i bought this cold drink.. im not crazy!!lol
the next morning.. she slept for the 2nd round.. hm.. she look sweet=]
when she woke up... i love this picture.. i dont know why.. maybe we both look "FRESH"

then we went for breakfast... this is my cup of tea=]
then here comes the dim sum...
lastly.. when we at car... we took this pictue.. i love this picture too... maybe makes us look "WINDY" wakaka!!

b4 heading back.. we went for bowling.. lol!!

b4 i end this blog.. i would like to thanks to my parents who let me go.. and financial support.. o.. my bro too..lol!!
and also JOLYNE PARENTS cz he let us enjoy premier roon in highlang hotel for us..hehe.. he too fetch us there.. its cool its amazing its fun!! hehe.. i enjoy this trip=]

penang-genting? gosh.. im tired..

2008-12-10T04:48:00.000-08:00

i went to penang for 3 days... 2 nite=]..sat sun then mon.. wanted to meet si kut tau since she's there.. but.. aiyak.. seems to like ma fan her.. so ok. v cancel our meet up.im sorry=]...ok.. this is what makes me sit in the car for 7 HOURS!!jam like hell...gosh..
penang bridge.. its under construction..
then we have this.. yummy.. note the prawn=]
then i went to temple for... praying of cz..so i flew off a bird.."fang-sen"
i stop by at gurney for sum picture taking?lol!!my mum is talking to sis in law=]
then i reach our very own apartment=] my view from balcony.. wuhoo!!
looks good.. actually not dat dark.. bcs of my bro car window is damm black so.. hehe
er.. the next day i go..kek lok si.. as i always do..this is the old guannima
view from whr i am with the old statue of guannima=]
this is the new wan... its under construction of the "pondok"
i dont know who on earth teach him this pose.
ya.. i know... i forced him to smile..hahah!!
feel weird why i took this picture? its a things for you to wrote on your wishes and put it there.. then pray hard.. got tamil,eng,chinese,thai and even japanese writing!! wow!! amazing..
oh.. my 2nd sis and johnson
then in the evening.. we went to the bitch.. lol.. okok.. beach.. i meet sumbody there.. but i duno his name.. its qi jia fren too i think.. so this is the parachut.. hehe.. with a smile face=]
and i build tis sand-"castle" lol!! ng su sin made this!! take note ppl.. i never play this kind of things bcz i scared of sea so i wont go beach so.. if no beach means no sand castle.. pls ppl.. i know its sucks.. ive tried my best.. wuahahahkaka!!
my bro johnson n my sis in law
lastly.. i went for cendol=].. look.. its pua chu kang having the cendol..lol!!

lots of pic actually.. but i dowan upload.. will upload genting trip tmr=]... durh... ive been in penang thru out the years.. pls.. no more penang.. but its really a good place.. if you go v my bro ten its better.. cz he will do all the research before i do=]
thanks to family.. too bad my daddy and big sis wasnt there.. or not.. the day will be better.. hehe!!
k.. il stop here.. lazy.. wan go watch movie=]

fcuk uoy

2008-12-10T04:02:00.000-08:00

gosh.. im just back from genting just now.. so damm freaking happie that my internet prob solve=]wanted to do some blogging on friday( 6th dec) but too bad internet got prob.. so nvm.. ok. this pic.MARK THIS STUPID FUCKING CAR PEOPLE!! i hate people so rude and so pek chek.. i know im scolding bad word.. but im 100% better than her...
know why i saw this car owner fucking stupid? ops!! not only that.. she's fucking KURANG AJAR!! this is when fri morning before i went to miss lim class. this cas park infront of my car. tis is how she park.. what do you people feel if i park my car like dat infront of your house?!
because of your stupidness you made my daddy late for work any ME late for miss lim class cause my car cant get out!! not you cannot park at my house.. you can.. no problem wan but HELLO!! PLS BEHAVE la.. people let you park you ma park ho ho lai la...park half half like that ar? stupid chicken bamboo ginne zoomzee sutke asshole!!!!!

you thought what?? wear beautiful face fair fair people fat fat then can park at my house like that ar?
can you(the owner) dont show your NO-BRAIN ATTITUDE in the public??? SHAME ON YOU !!how on earth could you put on your stupid pek chek face to other people just like that???!!

its ok... you park like that... by manners.. you should say.. oh im sorry!!!
but you did not... when my mum is talking to you and you were treating my mum as INVISIBLE?hey girl.. let me tell you what...
YOU ARE FUCKING FUCKING BITCHY NO BRAIN FATTY OLD LADY!!
you MEMALUKAN and MENSIASUIKAN kaum wanita!!!!
why?? you kurang ajar wan izit? wan me to ajar you or not? huh?
YOUR LAU BU BO KA SI YOU A?
KURANG AJAR PUNYA ANAK!! FUCK YOU MAN!! you let ppl fuck til no ass also nobody will kolian you!!!!!!!!!!
you stupid asshole!!
what?? my mum ho sim talk to you tell you dont park like that cannot ar?! you stupid deaf fucking jerk girl replied "huh?" with the world most pek chek face.. pls la.. keep you UGLY face and bo ka si attitude at home can ar?? nobody will appreciate it.. better leave the earth..you are only a rubbish!! RUBBISH!!
you are talking to my mum dey!!! try on talk to me like that.. il let your car dont have 4 tyre dont have side mirror AND BROKE YOUR CAR BIG MAIN MIRROR!!
(hahahahahahahah)

ok.. this blog is so suck because i scold alot alot ALOT of bad words.. its underage people... dont ever try it at your home=]

to people who drive or you dont.. PLEASE dont park at people house like that.. its a sin.. you trouble alot of people especially the owner of the house to move in and out.. its bad...

to whom who drive.. dun ever did this..
to whom who dun/din/haven/going to drive.. please dont ever try this at people house...

advice those people around them not to do so... so that things get better then ever...

lastly.. people.. pls.. dun....

twilight?yes!!

2008-12-03T05:34:00.000-08:00

okie.. sheena asked me out for a movie.. erm.. ytd nite?? ya... so..this morining went to ga=randma house.. then rush back home for a nice bath.. so i reach jj about.. 1240?? hm...oya.. sheena booked 3pm twilight.. as what i wish to see..
seriously at first i wouldnt know what type of movie would that be.. so ended up sheena told me it was a vampire sort movie.. so im like.. what the.. but she said not scary..ok then..lol..
movie started 3pm.. yea.. and please people.. you've got to watch this freaking awesome movie!! please!! go!!! haha!! this movie is really nice. instead of waiting for the twilight 2 i think il get a book..
too bad.. they "cut" off the scene of kissing... you know la.. malaysia..hmp.. so sheena say maybe she'll get a... dvd?? ya.. il borrow from her then..lol!!

edward(the vampire) he is really omg.. i love him=] simply adore.. lol.. and serious... his character , voice , teeth suits to be the vampire=]
he's sweet..ya.. sweet and PROTECTIVE..gosh...

and thanks to sheena burthday present(elianto nail polish) hhaa!!
lurve it=]

ok.. tata every1.. goin to watch movie now.. home!!

confess-no.

2008-12-03T04:19:00.000-08:00

this is especially to our dear IVAN...lol!!
ok.. you know what??? im not crazee at all yesterday night.. where i text you.. when you are going home after your swim swim thingy??lol!!

to ivan's theory/law...admirer-like
adore - more like.. izit??
aiya i dont know la.. dont like what hell theory...
ok cut the crap..lol!!
so.. this is how it goes.. im not going to confess anything but to make things clear up in once and for all..keke...

im true.. its true... all of what ive send to you its all true.. i like you.. i really do.. i meant it...and i LOVE you... i do.. i really do.. you know what i meant by when i say its true right?? i do love you i do miss you i do admirer you i do adore you alot.. ALOT...
and to me.. my theory is simple...
when i say
i love you to you
i miss you to you
i admirer you to you
im crazy over you to you
i adore you to you
its all true..
simply because
YOU ARE MY FRIEND IVAN...
haha.. please.. im not confessing.. i am NOT!! im just telling the truth.. dont get scared..
i know why you dont reply yesterday.. probably you are busy/no creds(impossible)/no time(lie) or simply just scared of me and do not want to reply..
i think the last options make sense..hahax!!

in the same time i like you/love you/admire you/adore you/crazy over you..i too
HATE YOU
know why??
i dont know why...
i hate you because i know you.
i hate you when we 1st meet at a1(timberland as your friend)
i hate you when you reply my message
i hate you when you dont reply my message
i hate you when you tyring to say jokes just incase not to make the environment silent
i hate you when you gave me your number
i hate you when we chated online
i hate you when you simply on webcam.. and yet we chat til the next morning
i hate you when you say hi
i hate you when you say bye(i prefer tata)
i hate when you say ive got a motive when i message you
i hate you when you came to my birthday party
i hate you because you gave me the pinky little pig(light) on my 16th birthday(i think so)
i hate when ever i saw you in tuition classes
i hate you when you say you remember nothing at all where il be the only 1 who remembered all those
i hate you because YOU HATE ME

okie.. seems like hate you more than i like you because you... yes YOU IVAN ONG created such a big and full of taste memory to my LIFE...
i really really treasure it when you say WE ARE BEST FRIEND... because i really hope we are...

and i hope you meant it...
know what??il kept this "HATE & LOVE" forever in my heart cause you were one in my life...
in this life.. ive only got once got you this friend name IVAN ONG JIAN HAU...
i would like to welcome all those hate and love from you to my life for future again...=]

ohya.. b4 i 4get.. i hate you being late..haha!! i bet every1 does..keke=] please be punctual..hahah

lastly...
i treasure you alot.. and...
i like this picture too...>>
i dont know where this picture come from=]

cheers,
susin
friends forever=]

picturressss??

2008-12-03T03:53:00.000-08:00

instead of typing.. picture will do...
here we go=]mint chocolate from sis...-aus... look at the mint.. arent they... yummy?lol
ok... johnson... trying to act cool??lol..look at his posing=]ok..my food..wakaka!!! saw that prawn???? gosh...yummy...ok.. before sueh yeen arrive.. i force my cousin to camwhoring with me-yippie=]happie sexay 18th burthday sueh yeen=]me sueh yeen and wen...heres come wei shan=]the sexy tiny lady=]okie!! this is chickening!! its marilyn and maria!!gosh!! they took my phone and.. gosh!! asking maria to take the photo for us..mana tau.. wa biang!!i like this picture.. i dont know why..maybe its natural.. yaya.. NATURAL... chze hsien-pig!! wakakaokie.. i took this picture this morning.. according to this.. this is about food when i have to pray my grand pa.. its grand pa aniversary death date... this amount consider minor.. the major haven come=].. maybe coming up soon...

grand pa.. i dont know how are you now.. i dont know where are you now.
but i hope and pray that youll be fine no matter where you are or whom you'll be or even whom you are now..
i just wanted to tell you...i miss you... and i really do..
i meant it.. i do...
i miss your spoon i miss your voice i miss you calling me to have meals with you... i treasure you alot... im sorry i cant make it to your grave this year because i was in ns..
i still remember the look of you when you leave us...
i remembered the way you drank the last spoon-feed of water by ah ma..
i remembered the last breathe you breathe in and out...
on the 24th dec of 1998...
grand pa.. i miss you...

birthday celebration??yea...

2008-12-01T21:39:00.000-08:00

1st of dec-sueh yeen burthday.. i did not make a msg to her.. i know i was bad.. but im lazy.. and i checked out of audition date of one in a million... hm.. its over date... last aud at times square is on 29 nov?? ya 29 nov... fine..
and then....
i asked maria to come out... there he goes..."dowan la.. paise la..."
chicken ass him.. its ok then..i PLEASE him to go.. since "she" knew sueh yeen..lol!!
i slept for 3hours before i get myself into toilet on 610pm... then had my dinner on 7pm.. while waiting for marilyn... he arrive.. but he din call me.. he "HON" me instead of miscalling me... what the..haha...
ok.. then..yaya.. i bought sueh yeen a muffin(wee wen paid) haha... just a joke.. and it became jokes!!
i dont know what am i crapping about... basically.. we manage to give her a surprise "party" at station 1... hm...
me and wen wanted to go find maria at warnet.. but before we manage.. they(maria and kok thai) arrived.. so we stand outside and look at the moon...its a SMILING MOON.. i feel so comfortable looking at it.. i was thinking how good if im at beach... rather than at station 1 and get sting by MOSQUITO!!!

haiz...waiting the smiling photo from marilyn then...
and before we get into seats..i was so wanted to get to the ladies and do some pass out... damm maria rush into the ladies!!! make me keep laughing and i cant PEE!!damm.. i gave up on peeing and ended up by back to our place....

sueh yeen arrive then we straight gave her the cake... erm... me,wen.mari,marilyn,mj,zhi zhao.eyo and many more.. (i dont remember the name).. sorry=]

yaya.. sueh yeen stick to her ex classmate before she manage to 'visit' us..lol!!!

listening song.. singing song and etc...

guess what?? the only things that really make me happie is so many people calling me up or even text me to watch the moon...me too either calling other people to look at it.. lol!!! too bad i did not contact ivan.. haha=[ sorry...i dont know why...

oya,..i left out.. me wen and maria went to look at the moon sinc so many people take a look on it...
so dont know who called up maria... wen called up bear.. and.. i wish to called up "him"... wen gave me courage.. so i called... so i was waiting for him to pick up.. while waiting... i was telling wen...

me : he wont pick up wan la....tu..tu...
wen : wait more awhile la.. maybe he will???
me :(listening carefully)...tu..tu....
hello???
me : hello?(he pick up call!!! once in a blue moon haha)
erm.. "him" ar... erm... where are you??
him : home. why?
me : o..home.. free now??
him :(weird/curious) er.. ya.. WHY?
me : o.. no la.. was wondering what you are doing.. erm.. actually wanted you to come out of your house and have a look on the sky at the moon...=]
him :huh?what?sky?moon?
me:..yaya... the moon.. a smiling face... very nice.. go have a look lar...
him... er ok... hm...
me(i dont know what to say next....)erm hm... ok la.. bye bye...
him:oh..ok bye bye..

lol!! i know this is weird.. i dont know what am i talking.. i dont know what should i say.. grrr.. im crazy..haha!!!
its fun.. lol!!
its crazy...
im on.. crush? i hope so not!! please... grrr...

then i text him.. happie chatting even he replied late...

time passes so so fast.. tik tok tik tok....
hm...
its 11.. ive got to go home!!!
ok la.. everyone dismiss..hehe.. then

gosh!! chee hong came.. hello!!!! 1115 only come.. apala.. some more bring his cousin
!!! its a girl.. very "brave" and very beautiful..lol... dont know she's smart or not... haha!!!im bad.. sorry=[

tok tok laugh laugh scream scream play play tease tease and.. ok kia!! go home!!
get into marilyn car.. got 1 small insect!!! WAAAA!! me wee san wen TOGETHER run out from the car.. haha!! so farny!!!

then...get home.. 1130... hmp?! today monday o!!! yeah.. got forensic heroes.. faster faster.. go watch.. hehe.. watch til 12 go bath wait for mummy to reach home then 1pm SLEEP!!

out of all sudden.. i woke up at 420 am.. cant sleep.. i feel uncomfortable... and get to sleep again when its... 6am?? yaya.. when my maid alarm rings...

il upload the picture as i got the time/mood..
going to the ladies now..
toodles=]

2008-12-01T21:33:00.000-08:00

im so moodless today, yesterday. the day before yesterday and maybe tomorrow?? sigh!!
im so so erm...(dont know how to describe)...bored?tired?of being layan-ing you...
know what?? i dont give a damm man...
suddenly you treat me good suddenly you treat me cool.. eh.. excuse me... im not your house boxes punya barbie dool or toys k?? im human...just to inform you... you are... sucks... im not any better but you too not any better...
you are MENTALLY DISABLE!!you make me scold the word of WTF!! no choice.. you deserve it.. fark off man!!!!fark the way off out of my life!!!

ergh!

happie burthday to people=]

2008-11-30T22:34:00.000-08:00

ok... so fast.. another month gone and here's december.. gosh.. time flew like thunder man.. i did nothing for a month and look at the time tik tok tik tok..gosh.. im crazy!!

i cant study.. i just need a place a suitable place for me to study.. please help me out of it.. i know i dont deserve it but please!! leave me out of this type of condition!! i surrender..

for the past half and hour been studying history.. but no point i dont even know/understand/REMEMBER what ive been reading... ergh!! i hate me life i hate myself!!

im being emo!! pls...ergh!!

just cannot understand why am i been born.. ok just born her enough!!

anybody please introduce some place for me to study..

wanted to move out from house.
sue=[

THANK YOU!!

2008-11-30T04:32:00.000-08:00

LOL!! im so happy today.. really dont know how to explain my true feeling.. haha!!!
1st.. i want to thanks to my dear WEE WEN & BEAR=]
you both made my day man=] thank you so so much.. wen.. i dont know how to put it on words but i really really feel so so so thanks to you... luckily you manage to tell siong siong that i really wish to go.. and thanks to siong siong again cause he never angry or hiam me to follow him to go aeon..lol!!! i know im a BIG LAMPOST kakaka!!thank thank thank thank you!!!!!! haha!!! thanks too fetching me home and purposely come fetch me to there.. lol!!! i know i disturbed both of you patto-ing..lol!! i promise i wont next time.. lalala..haha

reach eaon then they(wee wen and siong siong) bring me to see.. ahem.. chairman..lol!!it wasnt that good because you never even say "hi" to me.. gosh.. i feel so so omg.. im not invisible man!! lol.. suddenly wen say wan go toilet.. after come out from toilet you pulak suddenly say
"er.. sorry ar.. just now FORGOT to say hi to you.. hi...."
im like.. what the....
lol.. ok ok "hi" i replied...
gosh this is so shit.. i never knew how to face/handle this king of situation... so FARNY!!

haha!!!i wanted to try the demo when you ask...(if you are the 1 who guide me) but i told wen that if he would be the model which lie on the floor...wakaka!! i smell fishy i know... but no choice..kakax!!

im not that bad actually...lol.. when go shopping that time.. yaya.. thanks to siong siong that choose a yellow shirt for me... he said that if i wear it.. sure hc will notice me.. yaya i added with purple hills and a green pants..lol.. i know im colourful... but im not clown!!!
lol

actually im sorry wee wen and siong siong because both of you'll follow where i go.. gosh.. this was like... im sorry..haha.. make both of you lost direction.. actually i still feel weird that i follow both of you'll abd become big lampost..kakax!!!

thanks for everything today.. but seriously i feel so so so tired today thats is why i went out from the giordano shop just now.. i feel so uncomfortable there..

and too bad that siong siong have to ga back so early.. or not can have dinner with him already.. at least some chatting will do...
anyway.. thanks to amitabha,jesus,allah and what so ever because god.. you guys made my dreams come true=].. yaya.. i wrote my wish on blog before i get to know i can go=]

oya.. weewen and siongsiong said that his hair was like soooooo ugly.. its ok... to me you are the best no matter what hairstyle o costume you were in.. gosh.. you were really yeng today!!!haha..you are really cute=]lol.. too bad.. you are.. kinda.... kinda.. shoooooooorrrrrt..hahahahahaaha sorry!!!!

and i just finish my steamboat.. il upload it soon when im not that lazy=]

hm.. hope you have a nice day...sweet dream and have a warm night ever after.. i know you must be tired little chairman because you handle such a big event today... congrats you've done well on this event=]
gambatte gudasai!!

hope can understand you more...the distance between us is really very very far...
i think im really missing you...

toodles...tired me=]

2008-11-29T20:56:00.000-08:00

I WANT TO GO AEON!!

can any1 just send me there??? and of course accompany me??? haiz.. i really meant it when i say i want to go so so much..
i want to see you...stare at you even its just a secong probably thats more than enough.. but if its more.. il be pleasured!!! i miss you...

im so undecideable and so lost.. please help me out of this situation=[

shopping??rm200 for 2 hours??lol!!

2008-11-28T21:13:00.000-08:00

ok.talk about yesterday punya yesterday first... erm. let pic prove everything=]ok. this is my mama!!hehe.. she geng right?? 1 hand 1 phone!!! her business really very very big!! hehe!!! on house phone is 2nd aunt. handphone is my last aunt. she always did this=]

oyy.. previously i said that my sis came back right??hm...there..she bought this for me...ok.. cotton on shirt and a ripcurl handbag=] luvre it!! thank you=]and this is from my bro.. hong kong esprit=] thankyou=]
ok.. i bought this from malacca when i go shop around=].. black shirt and pants=] thank you to myself=]
ok.. this is where it goes.. i borrowed ms lim bonuslink card so i get those stuff for extra discount=]hehe!!! a white blouse from world of cartoon , a sub skirt,a white shirt from erm.. duno whr and a half brown pants=]
lastly a short pants=] lol.. and these... my pencil box.. i bought it from esprit.. wasnt that expensive but i really lurve it alot!!!!! wow!! thanx to my self to go for shopping and special thanks to my PARENTS!!...
because they earn so so so much money for me!!! haha!! i smell fishy i know.. but its ok=]

ok.. we (me and wee wen and sueh yeen ) went to shop for cloths after class.. means after miss lim class from erm... 230 til 530?? ya.. that was my class time..lol!!

then i rush back home to take my purse to go shopping(special thanks to qi jia) because he fetch me home just to take the purse=] lol.. then.. marilyn come meet us.. with his mum of course..hehe!! then sueh yeen with her kinda not good mood have went back home left me and wee wen shop for new year cloths=].. i spend 140 sumtin and wee wen spend 78..lol!!! its cool man!! haha!!! we shop from 6pm to 8pm.. wakaka!!!!

plan to but 1 green shirt for miss lim but too bad its out of budget=]...
so again thanks to miss lim for helping me getting so much discount for what ive purchase=] the bonuslink card of course=].... il return to you next fri..hope il remember.. haha!!!!im sorry that i forgotten to bring cause i put it on my purse.. and i didnt bring it to class today.. but its ok la.. ive collected 1000point for you my dear miss lim.. cz what ive spend and collected the point will be 5times.. so enjoy it miss lim=]

again...A VERY BIG THANK YOU TO miss lim, wee wen, my bro, both of my sis, and my parents=]

and many many more=]

love ul lots!!

to jolyne. im sorry . u a having exam so no shopping.
to fen. u a working so. sorry no shopping.
to shin. you din reply. i tot u a gone lol!! so no shopping. n i know u wont go=]
to cerd.. too bad u at penang.. shop over there la=]
to ting.-im lost=]

im back!!haha

2008-11-26T05:30:00.000-08:00

ok.i went to malacca. and ive just reach home.
date :25.11.2008
place to gather : hsk
depart : 830 sharp!!
reach famosa :11.00 am
get ticket and get in!!me and wai quan.at bus.we sit the last roll.no different with riding hourse.ok.this is what happen after the next half an hour inside the bus.GAMBLING!!this is the place. A FAMOSA ANIMAL WORLDok.this is erm..duno la!!!but zhi zhong and kok thai that gang very bad go disturb them!!
ok. a picture is taken before we went in to the multi-animal show.this is the cow-boy show 'tearther'...lol!!i only manage to capture the view.not the show. they are really good in the song played and their action.
me too going to the bird show. those bird were really bird and really awesome!!lol!!!
how come they didnt train burung gagak??lolpls dont look at me like that. im emo-ing!!busy-ing.*excuse me excuse me!!*ok.im not inside jail but truck!! ready to "hunt" for the wilds=]ok. i dono wht is their name but they are from south africa.pls dun disturb them=]pato-ingi know im sexay!! pls dun look at me like that. pls pay!!ok.bye a famosa wild world=]

after that we straight went to town erm.. and we reach about 5??? ya. 5pm..JONKER WALK!!=]
walk and walk and find and find and at last we found this shop.and i ordered..
"calanthe curry mee?" ya..alanthe currry meeeee.a cup of my melaka coffee=]yummy!!this is the wish i wrote when we finish our dinner at that restaurant and hang it on the xmas treewe walk about 20 min after dinner and we pass by this boat to DATARAN PAHLAWAN.wee wen,sueh yeen,me and wai quan. we at menara TAMING SARI. this place rock and cool!!... try to have a ride on it for only 10 bucks 7 min=] the whole view of melaka will under your feet=]me and my cousin.look at those view!!beautiful isnt it?this is what happen when we went brands outlet... omg.. few of us.. erm around ten went to try all thise glasses...

isnt that good?? we help you to promote your sunglasses=]lol!!!ok..this is when we took before we went back to villa.im at villa no3=] no.955.. lol...but my cousin is in villa 1.. so bored=[our own villa got our own swimming pool.. this choryau a!!! put on luggage straight jump into the pool.. as well as us=]
frm behind: lih yann,kai jun,junxiang,zhi zhong,shangkaran.chua ,chor yau ,sui leng ,me,sueh yeen n wai quan=]this pic whr wee wen ang jeannie join in=]
guys behind kisiau=]
oya... when we jump into the pool.. its amost 11 sumtin.. then we swam and play and teach each other until midnite.. we learn ballet too=] then we go bath around 1am...
our dear chor yau make us tea and coffee after his bath=]THANKS=]the 2nd day... morning view=]our villa personal poollast day... 26.11.2008.
havin laksa and cendol at jonkey walk too... lol.. then went to mall after that.. i bought a pants and a shirt...haha.. happy shopping me=]

we have our pillow talk too.. on the 1st nite..hehe.. me , sueh yeen. wee wen, wai quan. and MARILYN(chor yau) he join us for gossip, football and girlie pillow talk until 5am this morning.haha!!!

the next day, we turn chze hsien(my cousin) into MARIA.. they both marilyn and maria called me MUM ..lol!!

we left malacca at 4pm.. reach klg 8pm...omg rite?? im damm tired and im really a PURE PANDA!!help!!
signing off..
photocredit:k810i.

subang parade?

2008-11-23T06:42:00.000-08:00

ok.. i woke up.. erm.. 1115 am today?? lol!! been waking up kinda early for the previous 2 days.. so...sleep more awhile.. hm.. ok.. then..after having my breakfast my bro force me to follow him to subang parade!!ive been using alot of reason to push it... and at last.. i make it.. by going!ergh!!!

so.. this is what ive been taking up throughtout the whole journey.. and its really a very hot day today..1st we when tumbletots
ok.. this is where it is... its really a good program for little kids.. if you do have sista/bro pls do try to bring them here..its really a very good programme=]
but 1 thing i hate is the service. my sis in law went in today. gosh!! the girl face who serves us like ppl owe her thousand billion like that. her attitude was like shit furthermore her personality!! probably she wan s** but her bf dowan so her mood is bad today.. damm her!!! il sure e-mail to the boss and complain her kau kau!! watch and see!!hmp!!

ok.. then we went toy's r us... nowadays lack of children will go there.. maybe because of bad economics??hm..so these two naughty king went to their sports car and have a nice ride.. lol!!ok.. then they change car.. too much $ so they can afford to buy so many many car..lol!!!
*beep beep*
ok.. after a whole tiring ride.. then we went to... secret recipe?? ya.. because johnson say want to enjoy nice creamy chocolate cake..lol!!this is when i took while waiting for... the cake!!
ok.. on our way back to car park.. this is what we saw..hehe!! fruit stall with various fruits.. yaya.. im crapping but look at these grapes... its small!! really small as in really small in size!! lol!!! another picture to prove...look!! its a bunch and the size is within a palm of mine!!lol!!! and most importantly.. its taste nice=]
oh!! b4 i 4get.. the seller said that its the typr to make champange lol!!

fyi!! before i get off to subang thanks for cerd(si kut tau) of being wanted to bring me to pavllion/time square... im sad that i cant make it... lol
k.. signing off now...
photocredit:k810i=]

continue...

2008-11-23T06:20:00.000-08:00

ok.. il continue previous blog of uploading the picture that i really i wanted to upload...ok... this is erm.. offcially a shell.. but it wasnt a normal shell.. its... from NEPAL from sifu.. hehe!!! thank you so much!! its really special=]ok.. if ul got read those previous blog.. i kno ul shud know who is this... she is.... SI KUT TAU!! she memeng very kut tau... lol!! this picture was about.. 2 years??hm...how does she look when she is "ss-ing" ? lol!!ok.. this pretty girl.. on your right of course.. she sexay wei!! if you see her now.. she's with her short hair.. she's hot=]

photocredit:k810i

21.11.2008

2008-11-21T01:56:00.000-08:00

i would just like to upload some pic here.. eventhough its kinda like "old" but i still feel its good to upload here...

but 1st of all.. i would like to post this for ivan.. ESPECIALLY FOR YOU!!LOOK!! how good am i??lol!!!
ok.. not to promote them.. but.. look at them... they are really cute arent they
??=] left:Jasmine , Johnson , Jack

ok.. i dont know what happen to this blogger / internet.. bcz i seems like i cant upload the photo i wanted to upload so so much.. anyway.. its ok.. il upload soon.. wake up 7am today... kinda tired now..and its sharp 7pm..lol!!

move it?!!!!

2008-11-19T22:24:00.000-08:00

ok!! this is awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i went to watch movie with my little cousin and his whole family.... 7 included me... 920pm movie... its omg!!lol!! im relli damm damm happie cause can watch that show at last!! lol!! im eally happy!! ok... its funny its omg its.. cute!! and its huge!!haha... if u wacth.. u kno wat i mean bout huge thinngy...lol!!
the name is funny.. moto-moto... for example..lol...and the lau ah ma.. she's amazing!!haha!!! cant believe that she that great!!lol!!!!
whoever havent watch.. its a must to watch.. ul laugh til ur teeth drop!!lol!!! its touching other than funny.. its a great show.. il give the rate as 9/10... it wouldnt be full marks.. cz nothing in this world is perfect..=]

here's a pix for ya when i finish the movie...

ok.. this is my cousin. youngest cousin of my last aunt=] i kno he is fat... but he is really fat!! lol!!!
time passes so fast .prove? xmas tree behind my cousin.=]

then when im browsing my phone.. i saw these pic whr i reli wanted to put it here.. there it goes=]
he is awesome.. wat u think??lol!! he is having his ice-cream(chocolate) its obvious..lol!! my nephew... jack!!nice shot rite??lol.. n my mum scolding me of not wiping it out for him.. yaya~my fault..lol

another pix probably...ok... i know this isnt good to publish him here.. but look at him.. he feels so comfortable!!! he always do that...whenever and wherever...lol!!!love him alot*muaxmuax*
ok.. this is the elder brother of jack.. its elder.. im not typing wrongly.. its.. erm.. 3 years back???probably yes..lol!! his name johnson... he is fair enough n cute enough.. most important..he is most naughty in this house...grrr.. he is not the only 1 but also his younger bro..jack...

ok.. i tink dats it.. enough 4 my family tree..lol!! shud have sign off already.. have to study my littke cutie HISTORY!!=]
bye 4 now=]

what a...

2008-11-19T21:54:00.000-08:00

ok.. i sleep at 4 the day i do my last blogging.. its crazy!!lol!!
its been a heptic day these days i dont know why.. weather change like nobody business.. its... hm... weird!!!

xmas coming
new year coming
chinese new year coming too!!lol!!

what a year... thinking back its really scary.. time passes so so so quickly... working for sharp 3 months at cimb under alliance then at the same time work at sub... until chinese new year..lol!!!
got 1 week break and go for ns!!! horrible terrible and vegetable night mare!!!

its omg~~~ but anyway.. 3 months reallhy meant so much thing for me.. its a crazy memory i tell u!!!but i dont think i want to post the pix.. im lazy!!!lol!!

then then then.. rush back for school reopen.. form 6 life.. hm... ive been send to acs.. then doing some sort of transaction to asstikay continue my "school life".. its crazy!!
not only all about study in this school but mainly about activities.. its really again very very crazy!!

exam exam exam study study study and activities activities activities through iut this year.. what a year for me.. until now.. havin holiday but its like.. omg!! its really omg... yet.. im.. er..
hm.. looking back at those things that ive been thru.. feel that im growing!!

congrats to myself..keke!!!!

emailing with bith of my sister which 1 at singapore and another 1 at aussie.. im feeling good.. i hope this feeling can continue... hehe. means i do not want them to come back.. specially my second sis!! lol!!!! im bad i kno.. but if im saying this bad which can improve our sister-ship then i hope this will forever remain to me... but... too bad.. she's coming back this 28.. er.. few more days left... grrr.. i dowan her to be back..kakax!!

this morning. second sis call bac... hm...guess what? her result is out..she PASS ALL!!
congratz to her then!!!! now shes' officially a lawyer...lol!!

its happie for her and my family and all my relative!! but.. to me.. its another big big stress!!!!
the whole family up up down down left me alone which haven graduate!!!!ergh!!!!
let me list:
1~my big cousin-an engineer(um)
2~his wife-it (um)
3~my 2nd cousin-professional it(um)
4~cousin sister-management in degree(1st class honour)-ukm
5~my bro-business and finance in degree(senior manager in cimb)-uni of aus
6~his wife(my tai so)~designer-senior manager in interior design.
7~my big sis- business n finance in degree-senior manager in singapore.uni of london
8~her husband-electrical engineering in singapore(pensonic)
9~my second sis-a lawyer-1st class honour in aussie
10~me.. nothing=[ nt even diploma...

im typing those not to show off.. but to prove how small n useless i am.. ergh!!!!
dying me!!!
20.11.2008.

2.24am

2008-11-18T10:24:00.000-08:00

ok.. its kinda late i know.. but i haven get to sleep yet... i cant sleep.. but i kno im kinda tired.. i duno y.. i feel dat im kinda useless nowadays.. ergh!!im feeling bad regarding i cant woke up early n i cant get myself to study... same old prob came bac to me again.. i duno wat to study i duno i shud study frm whr n i duno how to put/find a suitable n comfortable place 4 me to study.. probably il find it good enough to stay at ops convent dat public library.. dats da best place eva!!
malacca trip next tues.. i feel lke goin but at da same time i dun feel like goin..i duno y,.. i rather spend my time at home waiting 4 silence n boring 2 visit me than goin out n spend hundreds of bucks.. its kinda stupid rite??ergh!! financial prob again...pls.. m'sia econ...grr!!
but i reli wan go genting v my ji mui all.. i reli hope every1 can make it.. it seems nice... probably we do not need to pay 4 da hotel???lolx!!v a staying thr 4 free!!! so i rather take this opportunity to go thr.. for a good air breeze.but!!!!not theme park.. reli a nono thnx alot!!! yet pls nono 4 lagoon too!! i hate lagoon!!n reli i do hate it!! pls dun ask me y... i feel dat goin lagoon is sucks!!!
probably beaches n genting would be comfortable 4 me... as da same amount of $ i rather plan 4 nice trip than lagoon o sum suckie place.
p/s.. sorry to those who like lagoon.. but i jz cant pursuade myself to move on v it!!
ok.. im craping from jz nw til now... reli not in mood n i duno wat i shud have done v it.. im all alone in this room... whr "silence n boring" came visit me again!!! im sleeping all da day long but not nite.. can sum1 jz drag me out of it??
n i think its time 4 me to...half give up.. shundnt i???
signing off!!he din online=[

2008-11-16T08:30:00.001-08:00

ok.. sorry 4 da kecacatan.. i duno y..lol

the mice?!

2008-11-16T07:25:00.000-08:00

okay!! 1st of all.. i wana say a big THANK YOU to cerdwin parents.. cz they bo hiam me.. n take care of me thru out this whole journey n make sure i din hungry..lol!!
i slept at 5am ytd..lol!! n wake up at 8 am.. gosh.. then i sleep bac again..hehe!!msg cum.. its jo n chai.. telling me dat ivan bz today so plan cancel.. so i continue sleep.. even thrs msg.. i dun care.. sleep til.. 12?? ya.. then called up si kut tau(cerdwin) then prepare to go book exhibition at da mice..lol!!

go breakfast near da mice.. hm..shub b lunch + breakfast.. cz v havin it at 3 sumtin..lol... n for sure.. v did took sum pix!! lolx..

this is b4... saw "kenwin"? she claiming dat its her n ken wisma.. bhbnya!!!
this is when v arrive... florence si kut tau n me...(florence.. u reli pretty.. n u do remember me.. sorry i 4got u..lol)
ok.. this is cerd n gerald... he is so naughty..hehe!!n wan to sit da "dog" lol.

ok.. this it is...
its damm damm damm many ppl... ren san ren hai!!!!

look at this!! high school musical 1 & 2 in chinese version!!
okay.. weird rite y cerd take pic v a quite old man... he is not oni an old man.. he is a super good malaysian chinese comic writer!!!!beliau (lol) on da spot draw da pix of his creation 4 ppl hu buy da book..da topic is "lui lian kong zhu". its good! he's good=] n superb frenly=]c!!!! i told u rite?? he is awesome!!! hehe.. nonid 2 min he finish 1 drawin.. wow!!

ok.. she's happie v it...
lol!!!! mei li de ku niang!!!!!!!!
ok.. this is wat happen when i leave her alone!!!kesian punya siau mei mei!!!
can u pls behave?!please behave urself?!everyday doremon n sin chan...heiyo!! sumur bring them home..omg!!!!
ok.. this is children world... hm!! let me tell u sumtin.. a big secret... ppl call cerd MAMA this time!!! lol!! how funny was it.. omg.. since when??lol
ok..took this pic b4 goin bac..hehe... ppl say da ballon(love shape) nice instead of cerdwin nice!!! wakaka!!this is wat happen when yap yap force me to!!!!erh!!!
ok.. thnx to cerd parents again... my dinner.. i eat.. erm.. spicy chicken ramen if im not mistaken.. it doesnt taste dat nice..lol!!!

so.. dat is it.. d end of today..lol!!!!
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346am

2008-11-15T11:41:00.001-08:00

i still haven go to sleep.. im siau!!bla bla bla

ji mui mun!!

2008-11-15T09:48:00.000-08:00

THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE ALL OF U!! MUAX!!*WINK WINK* =]

confession time

2008-11-15T09:37:00.000-08:00

ok.. i kno this is crappie.. but..il take this chance to say THANK YOU to all of u SHEENA,ANGELINE,CAROLINE,JOLYNE & SI KUT TAU..wakakakaakaakaa!!!
its reli nice of ul celebrate 4 me even i say dun nits a belated burthday... v spend 50 bucks (burns our purse to a hole punya nite) to kotak hijau.. hehe.. but i reli enjoy.. even its kinda rush n i cant go bac late...(cinderella) lol... still i do enjoy today.. cerd.. thanx 4 my sis pants.. she's cumin bac this 28... fen.. thnx 4 mc flurry.. cz i din pay.. haha!! n phone bill of cz.. then erm... jo.. thnx 4 fetching me bac n go..like u n cerd always do,,, n shin.. hehe.. i kno u not purposely late cz u go take da cake.. im so so so thank you n so ma fan u to go buy dat cake.. its reli taste damm fresh!! i like 'em!!=]
n ting.. i reli duno y u a not here..kinda... dissapointed???hm... neway....im still reli reli reli damm damm damm happie v this evening.. u made my day guys!! 4eva ji mui.. ok..
perhaps its sounds like bullshit.. but.. i do mean it.. i do reli reli wanna pull bac ths frenship.. is dat impossible?? i duno wat had reli happen.. but i try to give up n stop thinking// i cant not dowan...so.. i think all of u.. reli means so much in my life.. perhaps.. in skul/coll ul have found another best fren.... but.. i reli no.. i dun have either...not 1 at all.. oni ul.. sumtime i reli feel like calling ul up o text ul.. but.. afta i finish to type wat i wana say.. i cant send out.. im just feeling damm damm lost..im sorry to say dat.. but i jz duno y ul feel my frenship to ul are fake..im sorry to .. ergh,,, thank u is all i wana say!!!

2008-11-15T09:32:00.000-08:00

this is how i kno how much this dress cost..lol!!!

2008-11-15T09:29:00.000-08:00

this is wat happen to si kut tau when she feels hungry.. but this pix almost finish eaten by.. her!! lol.. us actually..hehe... afta kotak hijau then go asoka..hehe!!

2008-11-15T09:27:00.000-08:00

my dress!!!!wow!! my present!! yeah!! n it cost...rm89.90!!!!! a u guys siau?? its too expensive!! but i reli like it alot.. eventhough its sexay!! wow!! ahah!! thnx!!muax muax*wink wink*

2008-11-15T09:25:00.000-08:00

ballons... not simply a ballon.. but a meangful ballon... too bad theyll shrink afta awile..haiz.. still its always in my heart!!!

2008-11-15T09:22:00.000-08:00

da 5 of us...jo cerd me fen n shin=] left mur.. ting.. at her house probably...lol

2008-11-15T09:19:00.000-08:00

my burthday cake=]

2008-11-15T09:16:00.000-08:00

si kut tau aka cerd v mo jo jo jo..wakaka!!! they sure kill me when read this...lol

me n si kut tau..hehe